b i g t h i n g s d o n ' t m a t t e r

2008-10-21T15:10:00.000+08:00

ok, for those silly but cute lil geese....i'm now blogging at facetsofsyen.wordpress.com. i dunno why some ppl don't understand the post dat goes 'to be continued....here' never bothered to wonder wat's to be continued where or tried clicking the word 'here'. guess it's not flashy enough to catch the attention. *eyeroll*

please help me fill up this survey

2008-10-08T22:06:00.000+08:00

if u're free, help me with this survey for my engineering professionalism project. even if u're not singaporean, just pretend u're one. or change 'singapore' to 'malaysia'. hehe. we just need some evidence to support our points. not gonna disclose who participated in the survey.

http://www.surveymonkey.com/s.aspx?sm=X0g7oejBgeeO0JbNlnL9Fw_3d_3d

thanks to all those who did it.

to be continued...

2008-10-04T20:04:00.000+08:00

... here.

i'll still check the tagboard here. but mainly will be posting in WP.

cya there~

testing on scribefire

2008-10-04T16:23:00.000+08:00

lalala..just testing new addon.

Maksim plays Original of Flight of the Bumble Bee

happy and sad

2008-09-30T12:44:00.002+08:00

happy : jay chou's new album capricorn. so far loving the 1st and 3rd song.
happy : SHE's new album. haven't listened.
happy : guang liang's 2 new songs (haven't listen), ito yuna's miss you and ken hirai's ookina furudokei

very sad : brought my Matt Reilly's Seven Ancient Wonders to read on bus. put it on the chair beside me in lecture and put my bag on top. left lecture hall and forgot to take. realised 5 mins after. ran back to LT. and the book is GONE! *wails* it's gone!! my matt reilly book is goneeeee!!! *howls* and my nice bookmark. ugh i wanna chop the person who took it into tiny pieces (unless he/she returns it then i guess i'll spare his/her life). uuuuuaaa how can i be so stupid.

26/09/08 is...

2008-09-26T22:35:00.002+08:00

...suyin's bday

...shing lam's bday

...song kun's bday

...wang liang's bday

...keen's bday

the most number of friends' bday on one day dat i noe. last time was 2 sets of 3 ppl on one day. can't remember the dates. haha. now FIVE!!!

suyin's bday celebration was awesome. pics later. have to get from john. or jus view them on facebook la. easier.

almost the whole group went Levi's Strauss Signature shopping. they're having promotion of 2 bottoms + 1 top for 99.90 only. sibeh cheap. as of now, chau, john, me, suen, suyin, carly, wei feng, sarah, james and ryan hv a pair of levi jeans. me, chau, suyin and carly have the same tops. lol. me, chau n carly in yellow and suyin's in red. XD so kewl~

***

i'll be moving my blog to wordpress as soon as i iron out some kinks and try to put a tagboard. their chatbox is ridiculous. only in realtime. once refresh page the messages are gone. and i can't edit the CSS/HTML codes. like i said, ridiculous!! oh and i need to think of a url. syen.wordpress.com is taken. shucks. and a blog title. bleh.

i really like some of their features. like the protected posts, widgets, write post page (more features than blogspot) and so many functions i haven't fiddled with yet.

but i hate that i can't edit the codes at all. can't design own blog header also. ugh. but it's not like i got so much time to do dat now also. and their themes are pretty nice. and their chatbox, of course. gah!!!

***
started watching gossip girl. quite nice. not as bad as the OC and one tree hill. although still got the usual scandals and bitching and sleeping around. minimal but still there.

house season 5 is finally out. so is grey's anatomy. been waiting soooooooo long for them. heroes season 3 is out as well.

and seriously, their timing is sucky. come out now, then finish during sem 2's exam time. and 3 months break time.....absolutely NOTHING to watch. pft.

random thoughts

2008-09-23T19:03:00.003+08:00

my break is over.

as expected, i din do much programming back home. was supposed to finish. but...heh. it's HOLIDAYS and HOME! time to laze.....

played a lot of maple. rebirthed my char. so freaking strong now. screwed up my 3rd rebirth. heh. long story.

ate a lotta good food. tai thong mooncakes. the lychee, kiwi, blueberry mooncake is awesome! so was the durian one..ahha. can imagine some of u guys going ewwwwww ade. mom's cooking. yum yum. so stuffed.

my fingers are so stiff i can't even play fur elise properly

i'm sorry suit!! i noe i said wanna go watch movie. but in the end i just didn't wanna do anything but rest at home. i din even go trim my hair or call dell to fix some minor problems on my laptop. bah

my arms are killing me now. crumpler and laptop weight on left shoulder. insanely heavy those drag drag luggage on the right. stupid la. so damn heavy. samo the wheel got problem wan. the bag drags like sengeted wan. benci betul.

lucky thing my virtual port can use COM1 and COM2 on vista. chau told me hers onli can use COM5 onwards. at least i can do my programming on my laptop.

5 days left of 'mid term break'. one day to kau tim each module. i'm kinda lagging behind my lectures d. nvr reread notes so kinda lost in some parts. sigh

EE2001 - need to go get my shunt thing fr mann ern and set up the circuit. write report. search for body temp thermometer circuit. can't just stick the thermister there and connect to the PIC.

EE2007 - programming. study lecture notes. do tut.

EE3702 - research on some gaming stuff

EG2401 - read up on lectures that i skipped. attempt tut. attempt only cuz other group is presenting and we're just gonna be having discussions

MKT1003 - research on Red Bull's competitors. read on lectures uh...2 to 5? try out tut 3 (again..discussion)

i think i hv some mild autophobia (fear of being alone). when i reached back my room, hyperventilated a bit. had to keep myself bz unpacking and stuff to ward off the panic. ugh.

needs to go buy dinner and stock up on some biscuits. or mayb i'll jus cook maggi and buy stuff tmr. too damn tired to go out.

needs sleeeeeeep then do programming. the damn thing's bugging me.

watched 'because i said so' and 'night in the museum' on bus. 1st one nice!! romantic story la. the guy good looking~ 2nd one is hilarious. ahha. 2 down. bout 20+ more to go. lol

m&m's are addictive. bah

was reading joanne soo's blog. and i seriously love the way she blogs.

"To be entirely honest, I don’t fancy shopping. See, I’m not your conventional chick - I don’t squeal when I see pink furry stuff, my blog isn’t stark pink, I don’t camwhore with my friends in the washroom (my friends are guys. it would be wrong if I did), I don’t give myself bikini wax while watching Desperate Housewives in the living hall, I don’t salivate at the sight of Brad Pitt, I don’t feel the compulsive need to own 20,000 handbags and another 30,000 pair of shoes, I don’t crave to try on clothes or look at pretty things and neither do I find utmost pleasure in swiping gold and platinum cards - I have girlfriends who find life purpose in life when they burn their boyfriends’ credit card limits."

i miss home. T_T

mid-term break? wat mid-term break?

2008-09-17T20:08:00.002+08:00

EE2001 project - design due week after mid term. everything has to be working by then.

EE3702 project - my part (done with baltic) on marketing and business. draft to be ready week after mid term.

EE2007 mini2 - chau finished it. so i wanna do also to be familiarized with it. due week after mid term.

MKT1003 group assignment - my part (done with another group mate) on Red Bull's competition and their marketing strategies. draft due week after mid term.

EG2401 group project - interim report due beginning of mid term.

so......wat mid term break??????

PFFFFFFFFTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

close call.

2008-09-17T09:59:00.002+08:00

results of hectic week caught up with me and almost kicked my legs from under me (figuratively speaking, of course).

right after dinner, had a headache but tolerable (thanks suen for the panadol offer when u didn't have any. lol.).

got to mkt meeting and it became a full blown migraine on the left temple.

meeting for 2 hours. omg. could hardly concentrate.

on the way back home, already in major pain and felt like throwing up. walk also a bit unsteady.

back in room. dumped books and bag, brush teeth and crashed until this morning.

X_X

pictures from recent events

2008-09-16T03:21:00.007+08:00

NCC mid-autumn service.

22 birthday (gawd old d)

from NUS friends

aiyak forgot to rotate. X_X

present from the gang. idea from chub. electronic chips from chau's toolbox. lol

beautiful uber fragile glass bottle from suyin.

present from cell group. i love the cover design man!

the moon that night.

marche's moo moo

fruit cake. careful. ur drool drop onto ur keyboard d.

digging in. yum~

nice n clean plate.

panna cotta ice cream. raspberry seeds all stuck in my teeth after dat. pft

lalalalala

scraped clean.

from one insane week into another

2008-09-14T00:18:00.002+08:00

went bugis today wif baltic to get project stuff. tot can kau tim in bout 1 hr. end up spent bout 2.5 hrs there.

1st went to get pulse sensor. SGD40+. and found out on official receipt only can put SGD10 for the COMPONENTS only. wat the crap. tell la earlier so we can just go online find circuit. damnit. means we now have to pay up SGD30+ on our own. cannot claim from lab. got the roller sensor also for SGD4.50 but now dunno whether can use cuz tilt it a bit onli, the ball inside move d. how to detect someone falling down leh. move abit, alarm ring? X_X

then went over to sim lim tower to get rechargeable batt and solar panel. stopped at batt store 1st. din noe whether solar panel can supply the 5V needed to put into voltage converter to get 9V, so went to look at solar panels. 6.6V 200mA for SGD22. and the thing only produced max 3.3V when we tested out. sienness. and dunno whether the current is ok for the converter. called mann ern ask him check converter datasheet. seems 200mA is ok. but still din wanna get the solar panel yet.

went back to batt store. discuss a while more bout the batts and stuff. finally bought only 4 1.2V batts (we need total 6V to be able to regulate it to 5V) cuz it's kinda weird to charge 5 batts. and we wanted to just test it out 1st. 4 rechargeable batts = SGD20. then we realised, how are we gonna detect whether batts charged up or not? batt charger holder + 4 batts = SGD68. SIAOOOOOOO!!!!

after buying the batts, went back to get 2 6.6V batt (since one gives 3.3V onli, we need 2 to be able to get at least 6V to connect to converter). and wth....the shop closed d. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. went to find another shop and bought 6 5V 80mA solar panels. this one at least gives 5V ngam ngam. gonna put it er.....2 panels in series then the 3 pairs in parallel to get 10V and 240mA. this way, dunit converter d. can straight charge the batts. yay!!

by the time we finish ade bout 6. omg. supposed to meet sis at vivo at 530!!! and baltic's phone batt died. and he STILL can't remember his own gf's phone number. goodness. has to ask xander for sue ann's number. tsk tsk tsk. lousy baka.

eheh was supposed to meet sis at outram park station. but somehow......terlupa and went to harbour front and wondering where is she. LOLz. GOMEN!!!!

went to get tics back to KL. fri 10am. gotta leave hse so early. ack. train gonna be packed. so prob taking 189 to kent ridge terminal then change to bus 10. coming back sg on 23/9 (tues) to cont project testing and programming.

wanted to go marche for dinner but the queue was insane. so ate at secret recipe. talked talked. went shopping. bought 2 shorts wif 30% discount. syokness~~ 930pm went back to marche and finally get to eat a bday cake and ice cream. heh. sis chia~ wheehehe.

soooo, insane week ahead. which will consist of going to project lab to test stuff, ee2007 programming wif chau, MKT group meeting on tues 6pm, 2 MKT subject pools, e-gaming meeting and mike just reminded me of EG2401's interim report.

holy crap. i need a double. or a clone.

sigh

going insane

2008-09-08T00:47:00.003+08:00

EE2007 mini 1 (finally done)
EG2401 tut 1 presentation (still struggling)
EE2001 research on thermistor for body temp, voltage converter, solar panels (super headache. all the specifications on farnell site. omg. seeing stars sia)
MKT1003 individual assignment 1 due fri (haven't even bloody started)
EE2007 tut 4 (just printed out)

omg i'm so screwed.

and i just realized it's ade week 5 and EE2001 PCB design's due in week 9. which means have to get the things, test them out, program it and make sure it's OK. IN THREE WEEKS!!! WTH???

and somehow my MKT assignments have such awful timings. group assignment due the week of my ee2001 PCB design submission. gonna be so bz wif the subsystem testing and samo gotta go for meetings. damnit

and e-gaming also got 50% project with meetings.

this is such a horrible semester. T_T

Daddy God i really need to multiply time. about 3 times would be nice. please? *sobs*

NCC's mid-autumn service

2008-09-07T23:12:00.002+08:00

was up at 7am. at singapore indoor stadium at 9am. all the student servers in red tops. seeing red everywhere. lolz.

they let us in at bout 10am. NUS engin and science cell groups' station is the north entrance with the poly cell group. and we had the most number of mooncakes to pack. 3500 tins of mooncakes. and we had to pack them and arrange within an hour. seemed impossible but we managed to do it. felt so robotic. i was opening paper bags, passing it to a fren who puts the mooncake tins into the bag n passes it back to me.

after that, a few of us were baptised in the spirit and we then prayed in tongues over the whole stadium. then we used anointing oil to anointed EVERY single seat in the stadium. fuh. so amazing. lunch was yummy! had fried chicken (deboned d samo), veg and sweet and sour fish.

around 2pm, service started. and since it was targeted at mostly the ah ma ah gong, got all those weird performances. hokkien songs with those 30-ish ladies n uncle decked with an unwholesome amount of sequins and feathers and fluffy skirts that only the old generation can appreciate. then pastor mark preached in hokkien while another lady translated on the spot to mandarin. haha. amazing man. pastor mark is so hilarious and powerful. so heartwarming to see so many ah ma ah gong receiving Christ during altar call.

then it was time to distribute the mooncakes. thank God they weren't like a tsunami trying to drown us. ahah. there were leftover mooncakes so we all got to take one mooncake tin back. wheee. wonderful day but so exhausted. got back around....6pm? feet killing me. practically standing the whole time. X_X

***

hehe today's message was awesome!! pastor prince shared some jokes bout pastor mark.

during their israel trip (damnit i REALLY want to go but need special visa i think. *growls*), the unsmiling customs' officer asked pastor mark how to pronounce his surname (which is Ng). after a few attempts in which they only succeeded in butchering the name, pastor mark said "u noe every morning u go toilet then u go ngggggggggggggg". XD even those unsmiling faces broke out in laughter.

pastor then quoted luke 23:43 which says 'today, u will be with me in PARADISE'. and he purposely go ask pastor mark to repeat it. pastor mark said this 'today, u will be with me in PARALYSE'. ROTFL! classic man.

they showed us a snippet of vid from pastor's preaching in 2000. and so amazing man! pastor was preaching and suddenly the chimes played on their own. O_O seriously! no one was near the drum set and it wasn't some random sound. it was as if someone played it from right to left then back again. awesome!!!

***

er ok...better get back to my work. sigh. neverending work.

i hate programming

2008-09-05T16:36:00.001+08:00

hate them with a passion.

all kinda of programming languages

C
C++
VHDL
ASM
HTML
CSS

HATE YOU ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!

curse u to the furthers reaches of the universe.

BAH!!

AVENUE Q!!!

2008-08-31T13:47:00.001+08:00

They're coming to Esplanade SG!!! 30 oct to 9 nov. student price on tues 8pm and sunday 3pm. SGD 60. anyone wanna go? i'm going wif chub! w00t w00t! love Avenue Q!!!

Kate Monster:
Why can’t people get along and love each other, Christmas Eve?

Christmas Eve:
You think getting along same as loving?
Sometimes love right where you hating most, Kate Monster.

Kate Monster:
Huh?

Christmas Eve:
The more you love someone,
The more you want to kill ‘em.
The more you love someone,
The more he make you cry

Though you are try
For making peace
With them and loving,
That’s why you love so strong
You like to make him die!

The more you love someone,
The more he make you crazy.
The more you love someone,
The more you wishing him dead!

Sometime you look at him
And only see fat and lazy,
And wanting baseball bat
For hitting him on his head!

Love

Kate Monster:
Love

Christmas Eve:
And hate

Kate Monster:
And hate

Christmas Eve:
They like two brothers

Kate Monster:
Brothers

Christmas Eve:
Who go on a date

Kate Monster:
Who....what?

Christmas Eve:
Where one of them goes,
Other one follows
You inviting love
He also bringing sorrows

Kate Monster:
Ah, yes.

Christmas Eve:
The more you love someone,
The more you want to kill ‘em.
Loving and killing
Fit like hand in glove!

Kate Monster:
Hand in glove.

Christmas Eve:
So if there someone
You are wanting so
To kill ‘em.
You go and find him.
And you get him.
And you no kill him.
‘Cause chances good

Both:
He is your love.

so bladee addicted to this!

2008-08-25T00:13:00.003+08:00

Kana Nishino - Style

hajimaru yo kimi to boku wo
tsunagu tobira KNOCK sureba
donna mirai ga bokura wo matteiru no

otona ga sou motomeru no wa
kanpeki na STYLE
itsuka haguruma no you ni
subete ga kasanaru you ni

Kamisama irunara kiite yo
itsu itsumade mo kono shunkan
REPEAT dekinai mainichi wo
miokuranakucha

dakara ato mou sukoshi dake tte
kodomo de itai
BOYS&GIRLS ga nannin mo
kono yo ni kakurehisonde wa yume wo miteiru
tteiu STORY

yuuyami ni kiete iku kyou wa
ittai nani o nokoshi te iku no ?
chikazui te kuru kimi no tashika na ashioto

takusan no hibi dakishime tara
yoru no sora mo waruku wa nai
hoshi ga kagayaku
zekkou no haikei de

Kamisama HAPPY SONG kiite yo
eikyuu hontou ban no RECORDING
TAKE 1, 2,.. FOR YOU!
koe takaraka ni utatte itai yo

ima wa ato mou sukoshi dake tte
awai omoi ni
ushirogami hikare nagara
nagareru hibi o onkai he lala
MELODY narasou

BLACK OR WHITE kono sekai ni
hitotsuhitotsu imi o
ataete PAINT MY LIFE

‘3D’ guree no aimai sa wa nashi sa
otona no itsumo no
kimari monku na n dakara

Kamisama irunara kiite yo
itsu itsumade mo kono shunkan
REPEAT dekinai mainichi wo
miokuranakucha

dakara ato mou sukoshi dake tte
kodomo de itai
PETER PAN no tame ni
MORNING mata mezame tara kono sekai o terashi
te ne ALL RIGHT?

***

i frigging hate ANTS!! ugh. bought the ant killer thing today. so 'mo kui chang'-ing (bulu roma menegak) to see the stream of ants on the wall.

at 1st they went into a hole under the window sill. then dunno y they took the poison fr that hole and crawl all the way to a hole in the DOOR! making me wonder whether they're termites or not. but when u kill them they're smelly. ugh. hate hate hate.

***
maple server down again. haih. so sien. wanna play my chief bandit!!! i so love bandits now. lv 101 d. w00t! can't wait to get to 4th job!!

trying out hairstyles now. forgot to take screenshots. heh. when server back on i'll get some.

2008-08-22T01:32:00.002+08:00

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee finally got internet!! installed today. and took a while to get connected 'cause didn't know wat the WEP key was. tot it's the same as the singnet account pw on the paper thing but it wasn't. finally called singnet customer service and wth....the WEP key is labelled on the modem itself. pft

ahhhh it's so nice to be back in the virtual world. so much anime piling up.

i can finally play my games. eh eh..it's STUDYING ok. for my e-gaming module. hohoho. got excuse to play games d. alalallalla.

sis intro-ed me to maple story private server. lv up so fast!! so syok!!! can get all the cash items using game money samo. omgggg finally can test out all the other chars and finally hv a 100+ dragon knight!!!!!! oh em geeeeee. ng mei huey!! wanna play there also? ahhahaa then i can finally attend ur virtual wedding. :P

back to anime i go *boink*

written on 14-08-08

2008-08-18T12:25:00.000+08:00

2008-08-08T20:48:00.003+08:00

whee~

2008-08-06T14:39:00.002+08:00

new laptop is AWESOME!! love love love~~

bought new laptop sleeve, transparent laptop screen (which i sucked at putting. so many air bubbles inside. so ugly) and keyboard protector (which looks damn ugly on the keyboard but at least it's gonna protect from spills).

finally getting my new phone. singtel customer something fella called me to say they found ONE black k850i for me and they're sending it over to Bukit Batok hello!singtel shop and i can go collect it tomorrow. wheee

ok. got a lotta stuff to do on laptop (patch games and start playing!!) so toodles~

frigging singtel !

2008-08-01T14:02:00.003+08:00

wanted to resign contract.

found out student rebate of SGD50 for 3G/3.5G phones ends TODAY. wth......

went to singtel's hello! shop during lunch break.

only to find out....K850i out of stock. asked whether other outlets have and was told out of stock ISLAND WIDE. *pissed x1*

asked whether i can sign contract now then come collect the phone later. cannot *pissed x2*

said if really want the phone, can do it online.

went back to office, called customer service and they said i still can get the student rebate if i do it today.

went back to take paper with new address on. came back to complete registration for the singtel wan.

and somehow, i can't complete the online shopping thing. *pissed x3*

payment method also is credit card. i where got credit card la!! *pissed x4*

screw it la. really don't feel like getting it d now. bladee hell damn sibeh pissed.

edit :

couldn't complete online shopping so called customer service.

told that STUDENTS can't purchase ANYTHING online. *pissed x5*

asked if whether i can ask relative to purchase it for me instead then.

told that i can do that....BUT i wouldn't be entitled to the SGD50 rebate. *pissed x6* wtf la. it's MY bladee contract which clearly states that i'm a STUDENT and i'm only asking someone to help pay for the damn phone and i'm not ENTITLED for the promotion? WTF IS THIS MAN!!

so fine, last option. go to an authorized singtel dealer. was given a dealer at clementi area and the phone number.

called to ask whether got stock not. "hie blablabla how may i help you?" "yes hi. is this XXX enterprise?" "no i'm sorry you've got the wrong number"

WAT THE FREAKING HELL?????????????????????????????????

*explodes*

bladee frigging GG day. don't care d..gonna wait for national day (9 aug) promotions. HOPEFULLY by then there's stock for K850i. or else i'll just go prepaid. pif. damn bladee pissed at singtel.

***

oh and steamboat dinner (for y2's farewell) at john's place was AWESOME!! so keng of them to prepare some of the stuff from scratch. had 3 helpings of tomyam steamboat. and the jagung was suuuuuper sweet. best steamboat i ever had. not to mention excellent company~

can't wait for the pics. lotsa craziness when the gang gathers. ^_^

2008-08-01T08:04:00.002+08:00

waited laundry till 1.30am.

finally dozed off at around 2am. thinking too much bout stuff i had to do.

terwoke up at 5.30am. wth.

can't sleep back.

things to do today : go bugis junction's singtel shop during lunch break to renew contract n get new phone. K850i. found out students have SGD50 rebate off phones and it ends TODAY. PFT! run over to Sim Lim to get 2G memory card. ask colleague to tapau lunch. after work, rush to clementi area for something (tak boleh bocor yet). come back have to finish packing up.

and have to survive on 3 hours of sleep.

great. just wonderful.

oh habislah

2008-07-29T22:29:00.004+08:00

Managed to bid and obtain all my modules.

EE2001 - Project (6 MCs)
Fully project module. Group of 4. Labs weekly.
710 Program Acc pts.
No exam.

EE2007 - Microprocessor System (4 MCs)
Programming. Done with partner.
Allocated.
Exam 25 Nov

EE3702 - Electronic Gaming (4 MCs)
Got group work project.
1 P Acc pt.
Exam 3 Dec

EG2401 - Engineering Professionalism (3 MCs)
Seems got group work / project also.
1 P Acc pt.
Exam 22 Nov

MKT1003 - Principles of Marketing (4 MCs)
Got group work, project and online submissions according to John.
1 P Acc pt.
Exam 1 Dec

Does anyone seem to notice that my sem is filled with freaking group work???? timetable is like so empty and relaxed. but all modules so time demanding. pft.

the big update

2008-07-27T23:24:00.003+08:00

ok fine. guess i've procrastinated enough on posting up some overdue pics and updates. been damn busy lately. hardly enough time to sit down and catch my breath. and the rat race is not even over yet. pft.

***
went out with sis a couple of weeks ago to City Link Mall and saw that Marvelous Cream just opened. went by it a few times while they were still renovating the place. couldn't wait to try it. mouth watering just by looking.

forgot what these are called. small itty things costs bout SGD8.80.

me and my sis's shared uh..forgot wat's it called. but it's strawberry ice cream with fresh strawberries and bananas inside. and they mix the stuff in front of you. nyam!!

***
i'm now actually staying at bugis. company's place. fella who was previously staying went back to canada for a while. it's like a 5 min walk from my office. and it's a penthouse unit but it's been divided into half. so my 'unit' only has 2 rooms, a tiny living area, one bathroom and a fairly ok kitchen with washer and dryer. the place only has air con. and there are no windows that can be opened. lolz. there's ventilation system la.

view from my window. nice eh?

my room. i love the comforter. makes me so nice and comfy at night.

toilet. stupid toilet can't flush properly. ish.

kitchen.

unfortunately, i can't stay long at this place. 'cause owner a bit picky fussy pot. and in the contract it says only one person can stay here (ridiculous when there are TWO rooms) and must be an employee of the company. next time my US cousin's gonna be staying here so i guess i have to move out 'cause i won't be an employee of the company any longer.

not only that, owner also wants to terminate the contract to do renovations and double the rental. but company doesn't want to terminate the contract yet since there's only six months left. so if the owner finds out i'm no longer company employee.....that'll cause some trouble for my cousin. aih. complicated la. headache also everytime i explain it.

***

next up. my office. heh. i've been getting a lotta shocked reactions when i mention that my office has a 'pond' inside and a waterfall. but seriously i dunno wat the heck to call it. it's too small to be a pond..too large to be called an aquarium. =.= and i get even more shocked reactions when i say the 'pond' is in the meeting room.

oh and we wear like those bedroom slippers in the office. 'cause whole place carpeted. hehe.

little goldfishies and one of the terapins.

pump area on the left side.

downstairs meeting room with the 'pond'. heh.

the downstairs engineering department.

the other side.

reception area.

eleen the receptionist.

from outside. name of my company.

my desk which is in the path of TWO air con air flow. D=

my supervisor (zain) and 2 other engineers (almost-gonna-give-birth aw yang and super talkative li ping).

***

on to another topic.

i finally found a room to share with sis. been to view a place yesterday. blk 445 at clementi. but really didn't like the place. it's like those 3 storey HDB beside the MRT with shops below. super old. can see all the rush on the pipes. samo kinda dirty and dusty. can't even cook. no stove at all! fridge inside reminded me of PGP fridge before they changed to the new ones. and rental was SGD850.

then today went to view another place. damn happy cuz it's one of the new blocks in clementi. only 3 yrs old. went up to the place and it was sibeh nice and clean. it's actually the agent's aunt's place. ahha. his grandmother is also staying there with a maid. another room taken by another female tenant who's moving in on 1 Aug.

the room i took is the master bedroom. and the room is so nice! pretty spacious. windy and quiet. with TWO tables and TWO cupboards. air con. and the attached bathroom is BIG!! so syok!! and there's stove so i can cook some maggi for supper or tea. and even better...there's a washer and a DRYER!!! walau damn rare to find a unit that has dryer sia.

rental's SGD800. but i think it's really worth it for the place. new..nicely furnished..got dryer..damn near the shops and mrt and i can take 3 different buses to NUS and the bus stops are super near. and it's a stone's throw away from the sports hall and very near chun kit and sarah's units. heh.

and my cousins are really starting to piss me off. keep jabbering at me that 800 is damn ex and asking me to wait wait wait and that i can still stay at this bugis place. i friggin KNOW it's on the expensive side. but how long you want me to wait sia. sem ade starting man. and i seriously HATE to stay in a place all alone (had some sort of a panic attack the other day. freaked out just thinking of going back to a place with absolutely no one there). samo have to shift. not so free as that man. pass this good one up dunno when only can get another good one d. and if my parents ade said ok, why the hell u keep trying to butt in? samo keep lecturing me on joining more CCA to earn points and saying it's my fault not trying harder last time to get accom on campus bla bla bla. omg. really damn pissing me off. ugh.

seriously damn bladee stressed lately until just now talking to parents also i lost my temper a bit. connection was bad. mom kept asking me to be sure to pack cuz sat morning hv to shift (she's so superstitious cuz it's chinese 7th month and say it's better to shift in the morning) n i said i noe and i was talking bout smtg else which wasn't really important. she didn't catch what i said and since i knew connection was bad, i told her 'nvm nvm'. and for some reason, nvm to her meant 'i HAVE to repeat what i said jus now'. =.= kept insisting i repeat until i sorta snapped at her. bah

seriously...there's a limit to how much stress a mere human can take man. having to deal with timetable planning, bidding, searching for a place, work stuff etc etc...added with cousins nagging at me worse than my parents...and my parents wanting me to kau tim everything on the new place including photocopying my sister's student pass (zzz they think she still 5 yrs old ar).......gonna 'pao cha' soon d la.

got so irritated at cousins' meddling until complained to dad just now and got scolded for it. haih. pls la..i also need an outlet to let off steam man. the bad thing bout staying alone..u wanna rant about something to someone also cannot unless u wanna shake your fist and shout at the walls. =.=" needed an ear to listen from my parents also cannot. get scolded as a results. haihs.

i'm rambling i noe. as i said...i need to let it out somewhere before i become a mini volcano. please hit that nice big red button with an X if u're too bored and are already rolling your eyes thinking what a whinny brat i am.

***

i'm fine now. amazing how relieved of problems one can be when she dumps everything into Jesus's hands knowing that it'll all be taken care off.

we're still close friends. he's someone i can just tell random and nonsensical stuff to. or just tell about my day and be told bout his day. normal stuff. but it's more than enough and i treasure all my close friendships with friends.

***

ah heck! almost 1am. work tmr! ugh. 5 more days to go!

oh and dark knight was not bad. wasn't really the type of shows i really enjoy though. and almost jumped outta my skin bout 4 times due to really LOUD sound effects. quiet quiet suddenly BOOM. walaueh.....probably aged a year watching that movie. eheh. 'the mummy' is next!! lets go watch!!!!!

hopefully this sem's bidding will go smoothly like my planned timetable. if it does..i'll have fridays FREE!!! WHOOPIEEEEEEEE!!!

i surrender myself to the Father

2008-07-24T21:04:00.003+08:00

ok so i had a teeny little nervous breakdown. *laughs a little hysterically*

9am - 6.40pm work + looking for room + sick + some personal stuff = a sudden fear of being alone at home and started hyperventilating and crying at the same time. had to even bring hp into shower to play songs. zzz

i think i've learnt my lesson, Daddy God. i shall just leave it all up to you to decide. i'm sure you'll pick the one who'll be my first and last. this wasn't what You had planned for me and i'm thankful You stopped it before i got deeper into trouble. i'll just let You love me unconditionally instead. i'm fine as i'm safe in the warm and secure haven of Your loving arms. thanks for loving me so. and for being the pillar of strength i could lean on. love You. so much.

***

u don't

- promise to treat and share an ice cream with a girl
- call her just to ask her where is she when u missed seeing her leave
- msg her later on to say that u really wanted to accompany her to the train station
- voluntarily reach out and carry her bag for her
- spend time together and have long chats
- ask about the guys who are interested in her and tell about the girl u liked
- voluntarily accompany her to see the doc when she didn't ask

and not expect the girl to think that u want to be more than friends.

u simply do NOT give the girl such high hopes and let her fall for you only to dash them in the end.

'sorry' alone isn't going to erase the wounds on her heart. 'sorry' alone isn't going to make it any easier for her to forget the short but wonderful moments together or the sms-es.

she doesn't want to lose a friend. but the significant drop in sms replies and the delayed replies drives her into a lonely and scary place. she doesn't want to feel this way. doesn't want to pressure him. she can't do anything.

she just wants what she can't have.

him.

2008-07-22T10:16:00.002+08:00

dear body,

hello again. it's your fogged up brain speaking. i'd just like to ask you to make up your bloody mind whether you wanna be sick or not. this is getting tiring. you're sulky in the morning. i get it. i hate mornings too. but your little temper tantrums are getting on my nerves. if you wanna be sick, please go ahead and put a cork in your nostrils the whole day rather than just in the mornings and happily bully your throat evertime i decide to yawn or swallow. please do not suddenly be all bright and sunny when i decide to leave work early and wanted to see the doctor. can you imagine how downright silly it would be to go to the doctor without a blocked nose and a sore throat???

i hope you consider my suggestion although it would be really wonderful if you decide to be bright and sunny all the time.

yours sincerely,
the brain.

updates

2008-07-21T00:02:00.003+08:00

dad placed order for my dell studio d. so happy! can't wait to get it. went suntec today n they had the studio on display d. omg it looks so damn bladee cool man. the hinge is soooooooooo smooth.

anyway..been real busy running around lately. UFO3 started d so been going to NUS a lot. freshies this yr were a bit of a disappointment though. very unenthusiastic. sentosa n singapore tour turnouts were miserable. i think there were more seniors than freshies. meh~

damn tired. i just shifted to bugis today. love the place! damn nice view. big room. got dryer samo!! lol. hv to get used to a new place again d. putting my adaptation skills to the max. will post some pics later on. stuff still unpacked. so i guess i better go unpack now. thank God this place can detect wireless@sg so i can online. heh

getting laptop!!!

2008-07-17T16:20:00.002+08:00

like....very very soon. not waiting for PC fair. the offer now is so good.

more or less decided on Dell Studio 15 already.

Intel(R) Core(TM)2 Duo Processor T9300
15.4" Widescreen WXGA CCFL (1280x800) TFT Display with TrueLife(TM) w/ camera
Genuine Windows Vista(R) Home Premium 32 bit SP1 Edition (English)
Graphite Grey with Black U-Trim
4GB (2 x 2048MB) 667 MHz Dual Channel DDR2 SDRAM
320GB SATA Hard Drive
Internal 8X DVD+/-RW Combination Drive with dual layer write capabilities
256MB ATI Mobility Radeon HD3450
Dell Wireless 1510 802.11n Half Mini-Card
Dell(TM) Wireless 370 Bluetooth Module
1-Year Limited Warranty
Dell(TM) Backlit Keyboard with Touchpad
Dell(TM) Premium Optical Mouse
Noise Isolation Ear Buds

(last two is to make it hit RM5k to get the RM500 rebate)

Total price after rebate : RM 4505.

*hearts*

tegomass - kataomoi no chiisana koi

2008-07-14T13:41:00.000+08:00

片思いの小さな恋Kata omoi no chiisana koi - テゴマスTEGOMASS

眠れないほど好きです
叶わない　小さな恋
君なんです　君のことです
布団の中　もぐりこんだけど

Nemurenai hodo suki desu
Kanawanai chiisana koi
Kimi nan desu kimi no koto desu
Futon no naka mogurikonda kedo

I love you so much I cannot sleep
This little love will never come true
It's surely you, you
Even after slipping into the futon [1]

Tegoshi:

まぶしい　その横顔
全然　届かないよ
忘れなきゃ　忘れられない
心の中溢れる

Mabushii sono yokogao
Zenzen todokanai yo
Wasurenakya wasurerarenai
Kokoro no naka afureru

I can never reach your
Face's dazzling side profile
I must forget. I cannot forget
It's flooding my heart

Tegomass:

この片思いに　終わりがあるのなら
教えてよ
この片思いを　気づいて欲しい
後戻りできない　恋なんです

Kono kataomoi ni owari ga aru no nara
Oshiete yo
Kono kataomoi wo kizuite hoshii
Atomodori dekinai koi nan desu

This unrequited love, if there's an end
Please tell me
This unrequited love, I want you to realize it
We cannot backtrack. This is surely love

another gorgeous song by tegomass~~

2008-07-11T16:19:00.002+08:00

this song lyrics is so beautiful. dedicated to ppl like mei, mandy, tin, suit, jo soo, 5b gang and other close friends i may have missed (sorry!)

Best Friend NEWS - NEWS

Romanji

Kudaranai koto de moriagari
Ki ga tsukeba asa made waraiatta

Otona ni natta hazu na no ni nanimo kawattenai ne

You are my best friend
Terekusai kara arigatou nanka ienai
Tokubetsu na basho ja nai kedo
Zutto koko ni itain da

Bokura no sodatta machinami wa
Ano koro to wa chigau sugata ni natta ne

Megurikuru kisetsu koetemo kimi wa kawaranaide

You are my best friend
Sasai na koto de tama ni kenka mo suru sa
Butsuke atta kimochi no kazu dake
Wakariaeru

Kono saki mo koe ni dasu koto wa nai to omou kedo
Hontou wa kimi to iru toki ga
Ichiban kokoro ga atatakai yo

You are my best friend
Terekusai kara arigatou nanka ienai
Tokubetsu na basho ja nai kedo
Zutto koko ni itain da

You are my best friend
Donna toki datte bokutachi wa hitori ja nai sa
Nanigenai yasashisa wo kureru kimi dake ni
Arigatou

Translation

We'd get excited over stupid stuff
And before I knew it, we'd laughed til morning

We're supposedly adults now, but nothing's changed

You are my best friend
It's embarrassing, so I can never say thank you
This isn't anyplace special
But I want to stay here forever

The streets where we grew up
Have changed since those days

But as the seasons pass, please don't ever change

You are my best friend
Sometimes we fight over little things
But the more we engage each other
The more we understand each other

I'm sure I'll never say it out loud
But the truth is, when I'm with you
Is when my heart is warmest

You are my best friend
It's embarrassing, so I can never say thank you
This isn't anyplace special
But I want to stay here forever

You are my best friend
We are never alone
You're the only one who shows me such casual kindness
Thank you

laptops galoreeeee = headache X_X

2008-07-03T16:59:00.003+08:00

KL PC Fair is coming again. 1 - 3 August! Time to go grab my new laptop. Finally. I'm undecided over 4 laptops.

Dell Studio 15

Available colours. I like the Graphite Grey ones in the middle. It has different color trimmings.

Interior of the Studio 15

Cover.

Backlit keyboard

Specs
Intel Core 2 Duo T8300
15.4" widescreen WXGA (1280x800) TFT display with True Life w/ Camera (upgrade)
3GB 667 MHz Dual Channel DDR2 SDRAM
320 GB SATA Hard Drive (free upgrade)
256 MB ATI Mobility Radeon HD 3450 [the downside of this laptop]
Backlit keyboard
2.77kg
RM4241

Dell XPS 1530

Specs
Intel Core 2 Duo T8300 (upgrade)
15.4" Widescreen WXGA (1280x800) TFT Display with TrueLife w/ webcam
2GB 667 MHz Dual Channel DDR2 SDRAM
250 GB SATA Hard Drive
256 MB NVIDIA GeForce 8600 GT
2.6kg
RM4717

HP Pavilion dv67XX

can't really remember the specs. the brochure is in Malaysia.
T8300 processor (i think)
256 MB NVIDIA GeForce 8400 GS [haih. i wan an 8600 GT!]
blu-ray disc drive [stupid stupid stupid]
RM 5999

but the palm rest n cover design is daaaaaaaaamn nice. *hearts*
read a review bout this, seems the heat isn't dispelled very well. quite hot. hmmm.

Toshiba A300

the only thing i like bout this is the Harmon-Kardon speakers. =P
it's a fingerprint magnet. too glossy. and that big TOSHIBA word is FUGLY!

i'm not dead.....

2008-07-02T14:58:00.002+08:00

...yet.

lolz.

nothing much lately la. i'm somehow adapting to uncle's place. although the place is very dusty (3 nights only and got one nice layer of dust on top my laptop), the mattress is dying (can feel the springs and it's slanted to the left side), i keep banging my head on the double-decker bed (*sob*) and the water pressure is sibeh bladee low.

routine is so....same. everyday, i wake up at 7.30am (shit like having 8am lectures all over again). leave the house at around 8am. get squashed in the MRT for 30 mins. reach office. read mails, manga, forum, load anime. start my autoCAD drawings. show supervisor drawings. edit drawings. 6.30pm finish work. go cousin's place for dinner. head back. shower. read manga/anime/book while waiting for hair to dry. sleep.

meh~

it's damn sibeh tiring man. i can't imagine working like that for the rest of my life. T_T. haih. i miss my afternoon naps. =P

i'm still wondering whether i should use my pay to get a PSP or throw it all into my laptop fund. PSP price so tempting now. SGD190 only + 4GB of memory! i wanna play games like FF7 Crisis Core. geeehhhhh.

but but but.....laptop more urgent. and dumb dell doesn't have any XPS promotions now. next PC fair is in aug i think. bish. sem start d how to play games sia. T_T

sien-ness.

off to ask for more work. just finished my 1st 'project'.

2008-06-19T22:29:00.004+08:00

latest update. i now have no roommates or housemates. ya. damn keng hor some ppl. regret being a considerate person last time. look where that got me.

so now, i'll be going to stay with uncle in KHATIB for the time being. FYI, khatib is right smack in the middle of the red MRT line which is at the NORTH while NUS is at the south-west. estimated time in train from khatib to clementi : 36 minutes. WTF!!!! and that doesn't include time needed to walk to station and bus ride from clementi to NUS. holy crap!! samo have to transit trains.

i'll be going down on saturday (21 june) to work for cousin and will be staying with uncle until waiting list. will try to get a room in campus or see whether anyone who din get campus accom wants to find house then will probably join them.

which means i have a load of packing to do tmr. gawd i hate packing. quite a lotta stuff samo since staying with uncle bout a month or so. so far la the place. wanna go cousin's office also damn far. wanna go church also damn far. i dun think got direct bus samo. geez.

oh shit. i forgot bout internet. OMGGGGG uncle's place no net!!! hv to go get those portable modem thingys soon. or i'll jus.......DIEEEEEE!!!!

2008-06-17T22:26:00.002+08:00

ok i damn fed up d. this accom thing is really driving me crazy. and i can't even frigging get replies from my supposed housemates.

and until i officially put up a notice on when i'm going back sg, i really have no frigging idea when i'm going back so i'd appreciate it if everyone would just stop asking me.

i already have enough frigging problems trying to sort out my accom thing and i really don't need ppl constantly bugging me on when am i going back to sg.

and i may have to make a last moment trip to sg to help find accom or search for a single room. so please stop asking wat's the latest on my accom thing cuz it's seriously so messed up now and i'm repeating myself over n over to dunno how many ppl. unless i tell u bout it, pls don't ask.

kame-kun......the continuation.

2008-06-13T21:40:00.003+08:00

OH EM GEE!!!! i found so many vids in youtube on Kamenashi Kazuya!!! freaking funny samo!!!

kame on other kat-tun members

kame and holding hands

kame locked in freezer

kat-tun interview

kame interview part 1 (omg this one is damn hilarious)

kame interview part 2 (i cracked up over the cockroach thing. XD)

kame interview part 3

compilation of cute stuffs kame did

kat-tun vs arashi

kat-tun on valentine's day

kame being massaged

penang trip!

2008-06-13T13:00:00.005+08:00

due to certain unavoidable circumstances...full pg trip post will be in my wordpress blog and password protected.

password will be displayed as my gtalk status and msg-ed to certain ppl in msn. those who want to read it can jus ping me for the password la.

got a number of ppl to protect so gotta do this. kinda mafan but very necessary else will get some really kind ppl into trouble.

sorry for the inconvenience caused.

link to wordpress blog : click me!!

(it was a blog for me to rant bout private matters i couldn't tell anyone and needed an outlet)

and it was damn fun to blog there la. their functions very easy to use. will consider moving blog to wordpress.

kamenashi kazuya = lee hong gi?!?!?!?!? wth??

2008-06-08T19:04:00.002+08:00

can someone tell me if the guy (ya it's a guy. dun look so shocked) in the 3 pics below look like the guy in my prev post? or am i just blind? =.=" (u silly sis..kazuya-kun doesn't look at all like hong gi!!)

hotness is....

2008-06-08T02:41:00.002+08:00

*sniffles* i wanan be the white jacket.

hehehehehe.

*drools* major eyecandy.

NEWS + KAT-TUN

2008-06-07T15:23:00.005+08:00

two of japan's top pop idol groups. recently got to know bout them. songs so so only though. consists of quite a number of pretty boys. lolz.

abit of background : kat-tun consists of 6 guys. name kat-tun comes from the 1st letter of their family names. all of the guys around our ages. 1984-1987 smtg lidat.

currently a bit ga-ga over this guy. kamenashi kazuya. unofficial 'leader'. feb 23 1986. one of the actors in Gokusen 2 (started watching this show only know he's fr kat-tun). heart his eyes n lips. is that what ppl would call a cupid-bow's lips??? his upper lip really look like the shape of a bow leh!!

see?!?! bow-like lips!!! kazuya-kun (right in the middle)~

the top row right hand guy just looks freaky to me la. X_X
2nd row blond guy.....totally girlish.

2nd guy fr right = totally hawt!
ok fine i'm biased

junnosuke taguchi : DAMN GIRL RIGHT???!!! DX
kazuya kamenashi : kakkoi!

***
News (North East West South) : knew them cuz of tegomass. tegoshi n massu are fr News. ain't know much bout them. but their song 'summer time' quite nice. crunchy it.

bottom row left most : massu
bottom row right most : tegoshi (the pretty blond guy in aiai gasa vid. XD)

i kinda like this pic.

wat the bladee hell is the left most guy doing???!!! really look like wanna kiss the other guy n molesting his 'boobs'. O_O

yamashita tomohisa acted in some jdramas. though i haven't watched any. seems he's the 'leader' of News. not bad looking la. hee~

and tegoshi seriously looks damn girl -.- the hat doesn't help. ahha.

****

ok enough of pretty boys.

confirmed going to pg on monday till thursday. yeshhh!!! finally get to see mei and the rest. and eat pg food again. nyaaamm~

btw check out this song. i'm so addicted to it.

Aqua Timez - Niji (Rainbow)

Daijoubu dayo miagereba mou
Daijoubu hora nanairo no hashi
Yatto onaji sora no shita de waraeru ne

Kutsu himo wo musubi naosu toki kaze ga bokura no senaka wo osu
Sora ga koboshita hikari no mukou ni ano yume no tsuduki wo egakou
Hidari mune no oku ga takanaru kitai to fuan ga myaku wo utsu
Hontou ni daijoubu kana subete nori koete yukeru kana

Daijoubu dayo miagereba mou
Daijoubu hora nanairo no hashi
Namida wo nagashi kiru to sora ni kakaru
Nee mieru desho haruka kanata ni
Boku nimo mieru kimi to onaji no
Futatsu no sora ga ima hitotsu ni naru
Yatto onaji sora no shita de waraeru ne

Betsubetsu no sora wo motte umareta kioku wo utsushi dasu sora
Kimi niwa kimi no monogatari ga ari boku no shiranai namida ga aru
Moshika shitara boku ga warau koro ni kimi wa naiteta no kamo shirenai
Nita you na yorokobi wa aru keredo onaji kanashimi wa kitto nai

Yakusoku de mirai wo fuchidori kotoba de kazari tsuke wo suru
Kimi wa tashika na asu wo kitto dare yori hoshigatteta

Meguru kisetsu no hitotsu no you ni
Kanashii toki wa kanashii mama ni
Shiawase ni naru koto wo isoganai de
Daijoubu dayo koko ni iru kara
Daijoubu dayo doko nimo ikanai
Mada hashiri dasu toki wa kimi to issho

Namida no nai sekai nimo sono hashi wa kakari masu ka ?
Kabe ni kizamareta rakugaki wa dareka no ji ni yoku niteta
Kanashimi wo toozakeru koto de kimi wa hashi wo kakeyou to shita
Keredo ima kasa wo sutete me wo tsuburu

Daijoubu…

Daijoubu dayo miagereba mou
Daijoubu hora nanairo no hashi
Namida wo nagashi oeta kimi no sora ni
Nee mieru desho iro azayaka ni
Boku nimo mieru kimi to onaji no
Kizuna to iu na no niji ga kakatta ne
Soshite
Futatsu no sora ga yatto yatto hitotsu ni natte
Bokura wo hashiraserun da

***

btw, wat is so special bout june ar? why the heck so many ppl's bday in june wan? i always feel damn broke in june. so many close frens' bday. i've been getting friendster bday reminders everyday for june. jeez.

SEE?????

june 2 got 3 frens' bday samo (cheese, chim tatt and mei hui)
june 4 mei huey.

=.="

H.I.M. Various Artiste - Bi Jiao Mei Hao De Shi Jie (A Better World)

2008-06-05T01:06:00.002+08:00

Translation:

There must be some way, to let people love one another

We didn't come to this world to cause harm to each other

Bring sounds of laughter to the cries of sobbing, Bring warm hugs to those in doubt

Shine light into the world of darkness, bring sweetness to bitterness, and give care to fears

Warm every single heart, melt those that are cold

We can give everybody a warmth and more wonderful world to live in

There must be someway for us to anticipate the tomorrow

Since there is no way we can move the sun, why not help the flowers bloom

Give sight to those who are down, give the sky to those who live in sadness

Bring roads to bravery, water to sea, and children to hopes and dreams

Things that unchanged, will change just by the help of a pair of hands

The next time we meet, we will be in a more fast-paced and more wonderful world

Love can make the world a better place, it can reduce hatred and pain

The next time we meet, meet in a more peaceful, more wonderful world

**

so touching.

shed a few tears.

my heart goes out to those in China affected by the quake.

2008-06-01T17:35:00.004+08:00

2nd post for the day. sorry. lack of ppl to talk to online makes me turn to blogging to release wat's stuck inside.

**
(apologies to those non-NUS-ers. lotsa NUS jargons and acronyms here)

headaching over module planning. need to really plan it nicely if not regret later.

have no idea whether i fulfilled all the requirements needed for graduation or not. stupid UEM is so annoying! dunno which ones are counted as UEM.

oh well, finally found out SARTOR is only double counted as SARTOR and ULR.

VIP (6 MCs) is counted as UEM.

one technical elective (4 MCs) is counted as UEM.

which means i hv 2 MCs more to cover for UEM. heck. and there are so few 2MC modules around. wondering whether i should just take a 4 MC biz module but apprehensive of the workload.

and i also realized that out of the 7 electives (4 breadth, 4 depth and 1 unrestricted), 4 of the modules i'm interested in are design modules.

die la die la. every single sem i have left i hv major project. if i take all the design modules i'm interested in, i'll be......dead?

headache!!

**

accom hit another glitch. haih. so troublesome la. keep hitting hiccups.

was planning to go back early june to work for cousin. at this rate, there's no time to work d.

from getting accom in may, pushed to june cuz not enough ppl.

now suddenly we're waiting for more ppl who are waiting for appeal (results out june 16) and we're staying in a 4+1 at jurong west???

i tot we agreed on staying at clementi or west coast. jurong west is so darn far (regardless of having direct bus). and i might as well be staying at cousin's place if gonna stay so far.

haih. which means onli after june 16 can go back. and july there's UFO already. where got time to go work and get sufficient experience.

really hate it when ppl say 'yes yes confirm confirm' then suddenly 'oh not confirmed', 'oh i waiting appeal results' or 'we waiting for those appealing wan' when in the 1st place we agreed that we're not waiting for them.

jeez. at least have the courtesy to tell the rest that u're planning to ask others and get an agreement b4 actually asking la. so irritated now.

but on the good side, that gives me time to go back pg. mei's back and cheese is also back in pg d. too bad tin isn't.

ahhh i can't wait to see them. it's been ages since i saw erica and mandy also.

laksa here i comeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

**

i desperately need a new blog layout. but no inspiration. meh~

oh bugger

2008-06-01T14:57:00.002+08:00

facebook OK.

mangatraders.com OK.

NUS CORS KO.

ECE Module Planning KO.

onemanga.com KO.

-modem reboot-

facebook KO.

mangatraders.com KO.

NUS CORS OK.

ECE Module Planning OK.

onemanga.com OK.

WAT THE HELL??????

randomness

2008-05-31T17:37:00.003+08:00

screamyx is driving me insane.

i can't open OneManga! omg my mangas! i so desperately wanna read them!! 2 days d can't load. hv to reboot modem.

can't open other pages in facebook cept the profile pages. can't play games. can't edit my virtual bookshelf. argh!!

hv to keep refreshing pages. open once it won't load. after refresh sometimes will load sometimes have to refresh a lot of time before page loads.

is anyone having similar problems? or is it just my screamyx? argh!!!

**

finished Six Sacred Stones. i tried very hard to read slowly. pretty much failed.

great action as usual.

the one thing i like bout Matt Reilly is that you have no idea what's gonna happen next. his plots are so unpredictable. unlike other writers where u can guess who's gonna live/die and who are the bad guys, Matt Reilly has been known to kill off some of his main characters like in Scarecrow.

heck, i was so stunned when i read Scarecrow and he killed off a main character. until now i can remember that scene in the book.

so when reading Six Sacred Stones, everytime a character is in danger, u can't help wondering whether he'll be dead in the next sentence. and when he's somehow miraculously (albeit sometimes ridiculously) saved, u can't help but heave a sigh of relief.

some rescues are just plain ridiculous la. no way it can happen in real life. but then again, it's fiction. and bloody good fiction at that.

Matt Reilly's action book have already ruined me for other writers. i find myself feeling a tad bit bored when reading James Rollins' books (although they are quite good, they just don't measure up in terms of action).

can't wait for the next book of the Jack West series. Six Sacred Stones ended with a mighty cliffhanger. rawrr!!! Matt Reilly hinted on how the main character will be saved is somewhere in the book and it's driving me crazy trying to figure out what it is. ahah.

so gonna grab the book the minute it's released. i don't care if it's RM100. i'll buy it!!

**

ok so bout the results. finally sorta gotten over the miserable-ness (is there such a word?).

Digital design - A+ (my 1st A+!!! and for a module i hardly worried over)
Signals - C+ (the module i spent the most time worrying over and this is what i get. ass)
Systems and Control - B+ (ahh expected la. i know i din really do well in the finals.)
Analytical Methods in ECE - B (hahaah so happy i got a B. it's all stats so i'm pretty much a goner neway)
Understanding Uncertainty and Stats Thinking - C+ (ah who cares. S/U-ing it neway. not counted towards CAP. heh.)

**

veoh has been banned in malaysia.

suddenly.

i dunno y.

it was fine yesterday.

so sucky. veoh's vid qualities are better than youtube. gah. my bleach and naruto arrrrr!!

oh well, at least going back sg soon so still can watch on veoh.

**

went dentist. somehow i'm not as scared d.

did the usual scaling (cleaning the teeth only).

advised to brush the innermost teeth better.

one molar on top right starting to get cavity. damn. hv to take better care. i sorta knew it was coming cuz when i munch nuts and hard stuff on the right side it has the numbing sensation with a little pain.

asked bout wisdom tooth. dentist said in some cases the wisdom tooth doesn't show at all. eeheheh. hopefully it doesn't come. my mom also doesn't hv any wisdom tooth.

EH THAT DOESN'T MEAN I'M STUPID YA!!

ok la a bit la (thinks of signals). T_T

**

went to boutique below dentist. bought a singlet-type top for hot days, one white tube and one nice long length lone sleeve top.

lalal camwhore. and shit la i look a bit like my sis in this pic. -______-

nnnnoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

2008-05-30T18:45:00.002+08:00

i can't believe i did so badly.

i vowed never to do so badly especially for core subjects.

so why?

what went wrong?

am i just plain stupid?

others did it. why couldn't i?

sigh.

freaking bad semester.

tegomass - aiai gasa

2008-05-28T21:50:00.001+08:00

WHY THE HECK IS TEGOSHI (the blond one) SO PRETTY????

freaking unfair.

anyone thinks he looks a bit like Ding? =P

"Yamanai ame da ne.."
kimi wa utsumuita
sono kata ga nerunai you kasa wo katamuketa

kimi wa boku miage sukoshi yori sotta ne
egao no mama ude wo daite
chiisaku furuete iru

chanto kyou wa kono omoi wo tsutaerunda
kimi no koto akireru hodo suki ni natta

aiai gasa no naka de komotta kanjou
mo sunao ni tsutaenai mama
owari ni shinai you ni toori sugiru ame ga sekashiteru
chikazuita futari no amakoi

"mou sugu ie da ne.." kimi wa utsumuita
namae yonde me ga atte mo ienai koto ga aru yo

chanto kyou wa kono omoi wo tsutaerunda
kimi no koto akireru hodo suki ni natta

ashita mo ame ga fure to negatte
shimau boku no kakera mo uso ja nai kara
hikari ga koboreta toki toori sugiru
ame ga waratteru yo
modokashii futari no amakoi

aiai gasa no naka de komotta kanjou
mo sunao ni tsutaenai mama
owari ni shinai you ni toori sugiru ame ga sekashiteru
chiikazuita futari no amakoi

wants...

2008-05-27T16:47:00.003+08:00

these books for keeps

these albums for preview listening

Kenji Wu - Poems For You (click for review)

元衛覺醒 (Yuan Wei Jue Xing) - 下流社会 (Xia Liu She Hui)
(click for review)

Khalil Fong - Wonderland (click for review)

Amber Guo - Invisible Superman (click for review)

Valen Hsu - Latitude 66 Degrees (click for review)

***

damn nice song! suddenly found it in my PC. someone translate the lyrics for me!!!! can't find the pinyin. T_T and conversion page KOed. boohoo!!

夏天的風　吹入我心中　你站在海邊望著天空
你說世界　是多麼遼闊　渺小的我們擁有什麼

當時的我們　還很懵懂　你就像溫室裡的花朵
保護著你　不讓你凋落　捧在我手心不曾放手

時間滴答的走　年華似水的流　年少輕狂的愛能多久
你放開我的手　綻放出燦爛的花朵

每當夏天我吹著溫暖的風　想起當時我們愛得很灑脫
美麗的蒲公英散落空中　隨著風搖曳得很自由
每當夏天我吹著溫暖的風　我們的故事簡單卻很生動
花瓣掉落在我的手中　握著我們曾經的感動

每當夏天我就喜歡吹著風　我們的故事簡單卻很生動

當時的我們　還很懵懂　你就像溫室裡的花朵
保護著你　不讓你凋落　捧在我手心不曾放手

時間滴答的走　年華似水的流　年少輕狂的愛能多久
你放開我的手　綻放出燦爛的花朵

每當夏天我吹著溫暖的風　想起當時我們愛得很灑脫
美麗的蒲公英散落空中　隨著風搖曳得很自由
每當夏天我吹著溫暖的風　我們的故事簡單卻很生動
花瓣掉落在我的手中　握著我們曾經的感動

每當夏天我就喜歡吹著風　我們的故事簡單卻很生動
每當夏天我就喜歡吹著風　我們的故事簡單卻很生動

每當夏天我吹著溫暖的風　我們的故事簡單卻很生動
花瓣掉落在我的手中　握著我們曾經的感動

有一天你也會　想起我

2008-05-24T04:46:00.003+08:00

when, syen?

when will you learn to keep your fat mouth shut and your problems to yourself?

stupid fool of a girl.

you've destroyed the trust i had in you.
no more will i turn to you.

2008-05-23T16:16:00.000+08:00

[rant]

why the fuck is everyone trying to piss me off today??

[/rant]

Always Be My Baby by David Cook

2008-05-21T22:49:00.003+08:00

Always Be My Baby (Studio) - David Cook

this song is so awesome!

i'm so hooked on it.

his voice is like hot chocolate syrup.

deep...

smooth...

orgasmic...

makes me close my eyes and just let his voice flow over me.

you'll always be a part of me
i'm a part of you indefinitely
girl don't you know you can't escape me
ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
and we'll linger on
time can't erase a feeling this strong
no way you're never gonna shake me
ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

if i had a guy with his voice singing to me, i wanna be chained to him!

things to do

2008-05-12T23:57:00.002+08:00

things to do in the approx. 3 short weeks i'm back

- CUT HAIR!! wonder if i should just trim n layer it. leave the length the same. then b4 sem starts onli go cut short

- play piano. played this afternoon actually. and holy crap i'm so rusty it's embarrassing!! stumbling over the fast notes. hitting wrong notes. omg. T_T

- plan pg trip. bus tic. place to stay in pg. when coming back. zzz

- watch movies!!! damn i haven't set foot in a cinema since....december?? gonna go catch narnia on friday and indiana jones next thurs with suit lin.

- go gym!! damnit. my parents n relatives all said i'm FAT!! i hate 8am classes. wake up eat. lunch eat. tea time eat. dinner eat. the hell!!! from 2 meals a day to 4. size also doubled.

- unpack and throw stuff dat dowanna bring back next sem. so much!! my things like....doubled also. haha.

- wash crumpler. poor thing so dirty again. damn mafan wash this bag. the water gets retained between the outer n inner layer. hv to hang for a few days n keep squeezing the water out. jeez

- play PS games. aahh. onli if got time. looks like dun hv. zzz

- stock up on stationary and grocery items b4 going back.

- search for accom online.

so many things!!! omg. samo this weekend (18 - 19 may) going back sg for 2 days. parents gonna pick sis. she holiday 2 weeks. parents bo kam wan let her sit bus back alone since she dunno where to take it bla bla bla yet. zzz

next weekend (24 n 25) is welcome tea + pg trip.

29 may. sis's MOE grant signing. dad and sis going in. mom also said wanna go sg shopping n go back wif me 2 days later.

and holy shit. it's already gonna be june. walaueh where got time to do everything???!!! unless postpone going back one more week.

but then again. i'll hv to see if we've confirmed accom. dun wanna lug things to cousin's place then to new place. sia mafan.

waaaa everything to unconfirmed and haywire.

ok i jus rambled a heck lotta nonsense.

it's over!!!

2008-05-10T00:52:00.002+08:00

erm. it's a happy thing ya. not some malapetaka.

finals are overrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

my brain is dead dead dead...

finals kill my brain cells every time. by the time i graduate..i'll be brainless. hurray! T_T

hope my results will be OK. *fingers crossed*

***

went vivo after paper. met up wif sis to go shopping for belated-bday-and-mother's-day gift for mom. bought her a handbag.

and i got a bag also. ahha. a bag dat most of u will hv ur jaws resting on the floor when u see me carrying it.

ah heck. time to change a bit neway. can't go lugging around crumpler everywhere. and i dun hv a casual kinda bag for like shopping and stuff. meh.

had ben n jerry's also. nyaaamm. so nice. after so long never eat ice cream.

rented THREE books. w00t!! James Rollins' Subterranean and Excavation. David Eddings' Pawn of Prophecy of the Belgariad. shit i feel broke!

but happy. ehheheeh
**

i need to pack!! omg. i'm going back on sunday and i haven't even packed a stitch of clothing. or put books and stuff into box. damnit.

parents samo coming tmr and confirm going out for dinner. acckkkk!!!

have to do some major packing tmr morning.

where the heck did all these stuff come from neway!!

**

i'm bladee hungry.

i've ran outta maggi

no biscuits

super snacks closed

sheares is too damn far. i'll die halfway

solution?

drink water. lotsa lotsa water.

sad life.

2008-05-07T02:00:00.000+08:00

blog half dead.

blogger 3/4 dead.

give your thanks to freaking finals.

'nuff said.

i am....

2008-04-25T02:17:00.003+08:00

addicted to anime with hot bishounen guys.

la corda d'oro
- tsuchiura!! tall and muscular. plays beautiful piano.

vampire knight
- zero kiryuu!! cool earrings. the never-smile-brooding type.
- kaname kuran!! dark long hair. serious type.

(zero on left kaname on right)

neo angelique abyss
- rayne! again. the earrings. i think i have a fetish for hot anime guys with lotsa cool earrings. =.="

- JD. jus appeared in latest ep.

-hyuga. haven't appeared. looks like the dangerous if-looks-could-kill kind. sorta like captain kuchiki in bleach.

ehehhehe can't resist these.....

kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

bishies ruleeeeeee

****

trying my hardest to concentrate n study n absorb wat i've been studying.

it's a hard hard road to walk on.

sigh

***

in the process of looking for new place. sharing a whole unit with some frens.

got a few prospects. cheap.

but bad timing for us to go check the place out. ugh.

everyone having papers.

have to get place ASAP cuz we're planning to move in right after exams (no place to put stuff).

good location. opposite sheng siong there. got food court..pharmacy..grocery..wet market..bakery..etc etc.. and best yet...direct bus to kent ridge terminal!!! wheeeeeee!!!

pray everything turns out great!!

**

power of prayer

2008-04-16T20:31:00.002+08:00

lately my mom's been having back pains off and on. sometimes it'll be so bad she has to be bedridden. she's been seeing the doc and last time the pain meds worked.

just before she came down sg wif my sis (sis got into temasek poly for those who dunno) she told me her back pain is so bad now that doc's meds are not working and doc also advised her to go for an MRI check.

last nite while in the shower i suddenly had an urge to speak a healing prayer for my mom. i can't even remember what i prayed now. it was just like a short prayer while ~~wasting water~~ enjoying the cascading warm water.

this aft she called me again to tell me she n my dad are going back to KL (dad got some work stuff to do) and she was damn happy when she told me her back is better today. she said last nite it gradually felt less n less pain dat's why she was able to follow my dad to PGP to drop me some stuff and get of my stuff for my sis's orientation camp. this morning the pain is hardly there cept some small twinges.

haha when i heard her say dat i was so amazed. can really hear that she's super happy. amazing what a short little prayer can do when nothing else could. i'm still praying for a full recovery for my mom. btw..mom's not a believer and sometimes she's not really happy with me when i put God and church 1st. but i'm believing in a breakthrough for that.

Praise be to Daddy God!!

the kind of ppl i have to live with....

2008-04-13T20:36:00.002+08:00

- throws tons of tissue paper into the toilet bowl causing it to clog up.
- throws pads into sanitary bin WITHOUT wrapping them up causing the pads to stick to the tray and greet you with a bloody view (pun intended) when you wanna throw yours.
- drips pee on the toilet seat (plus blood) and doesn't bother to wipe it up
- drips pee on the floor (dun ask me how this happens -.-)
- leaves pad wrappings in the shower stall and doesn't bother to pick it and throw it into the bin nearby
- leaves their panties hanging behind the doors and on the rack for days. (don't you shower everyday????)
- leaves dirty clothes soaking in a basin for more than a week (damn smelly. i gag every time i forget to hold my breath)
- dumps rubbish into the toilet bin until overflowing when there's a bladee rubbish chute in the kitchen
- dirties the hotplate area and doesn't clean up
- dumps dirty dishes into sink until reach the top of the sink and leaves them there for days
- throws food remnants into sink causing sink to clog up with oil stains all around
- crams a 1L milk carton into the teeny bin which is smaller than the milk carton (stupid dumbass doesn't know how to open the rubbish chute i'm guessing)
- tries to throw rubbish into the tiny bin even though it's full causing the rubbish to drop on the floor creating a horrible mess (it's mainly stuff like fruit skins, bits of meat etc etc)
- and all the food causes the bird to come n make a bigger mess not to mention shitting in the kitchen

hard to believe those ppl are well-educated, civilized (i hope) 20+ year olds.

can't imagine what they'd be like when they get married. poor husband.

finally!

2008-04-07T00:18:00.002+08:00

it's DONE!!! gaaah!!

now all that's left is the dumb 4-10 page report. done the xilinx schematic (which was a freaking damn big pain in the ass) and simulation. but hv to redraw the schematic. dumb xilinx's components were not like how my real circuit is. samo uber messy. then have to crap some nonsense bout y u choose this component as opposed to another bla bla bla. nyek nyek nyek.

signals 2nd etest on tues.
circuit assessment on wed (10-15 mins to explain circuit and get grilled by the tutor T_T)
EE2012 2nd CA on next monday (thank God open book)
EE2010 2nd CA on next wednesday. (die la closed book!)
finals 30 april.

holy shyte!!! D+

laptop hunting

2008-03-30T10:56:00.002+08:00

been looking around at laptops. reason 1 : i gatal. hoping for a new one. reason 2 : sis needs one and she's a complete noob at this. don't wan her to simply get one like me last time. dunno how to see the specs and all. ngeh.

been eying the Dell XPS 15.4". love most of the specs. love the design. love the light weight (for a 15"). super hate the HD capacity (250G is super insane and not worth paying so much when most of my stuff are in external HD). price : RM 4199 without upgrades. if i get also i'll upgrade graphics card to 256Mb nVidia GeForce 8600M GT. but been reading the lowyat forums, and a lot of ppl who got the laptop got problems with the laptop (screen, motherboard, HD emitting sounds etc etc). ugh.

another option is the Dell Inspiron 1520. specs almost same as the XPS with a smaller HD (hence cheaper) but the weight!!!! omg. 2.9kg. sien. bring around arm sure pain.

still looking around at other brands. but dell so far the best majority of specs that i like since can customize samo. other brands some too ex with ok ok specs. with the specs i looking for, the price is insane. ngeh.

anybody find a laptop with the following specs pls tell me ya.

- Intel Core 2 Duo Processor T7250 2.0GHz 2Mb Cache 800MHz FSB and above
- 15.4" widescreen or 14.1" normal or widescreen (15 for me, 14 for my sis) WXGA TFT display preferably with True Life
- 2GB Dual Channel DDR2 SDRAM and above
- 120GB to 160GB hard drive at preferably 7200 rpm
- 256MB NVIDIA GeForce 8600M GT GDDR3
- weight between 2kg to 3kg.

hehehe. so far only can find at dell. but their quality not as good. haih. customizing own laptop is ex samo.

meh

***

tagged by yew hong.

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
-- =.=" duno

2. What will you do when you feel really emo?
-- play games

3. Who is your idol?
-- Jesus

4.Where is the place that you want to go most?
-- anywhere in Japan (cept mayb tokyo. too much madness there)

5.If you have one dream to come true, what would it be?
-- to be in a world where there are no freaking exams and studying

6.Do you believe in seeing the rainbow after the rain?
-- depends

7.What are you afraid to lose the most right now?
-- my sanity

8. What cheers you up for the rest of the day?
-- oh sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep and no 8am classssssssss

9. What's your favorite soft drink?
-- ice lemon tea considered ar? if not Sarsi

10. What do you normally do during weekends?
-- sadly, my tutorials (yea i noe. no life betul).

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
-- a guy, TDH, DDG and not PG

12.What type of person do you hate the most?
-- jerks

13.What would you do if you won a million dollars?
-- alot.

14.What is your ambition?
-- meh. engineer? although i dun think i'll even be one for my whole life.

15.What would you wanna be after you're dead?
-- harrr. wat kinda ques is this sia.

16. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?
-- i like me just there way i am now thank you very much.

17. What is your favourite colour?
-- aquamarine

18.What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
-- God

19. If there’s one thing in your life you want to do but yet unable to, what would it be?
-- resting peacefully in Daddy God's arms

20. What would you do if tomorrow was the last day of the world?
-- rejoice the coming of the Lord. RAPTURE ARRRRRR!!!!

oh damnit

2008-03-27T14:33:00.003+08:00

this is such a lousy yr for my laptop. 1st the hard drive KO. then last nite, i was pouring water into my water container and the bladee kettle leaked water from the top and dribbled water right into my keyboard.

faster wiped it and tested the keys dat got wet. everything ok. then this morning, shit laaaaa. i tested all the keys again. and a number of them not working.

Esc, y, 6, comma, right alt, right ctrl and right shift not working. sien laaaaaa. damn hard to type properly now. using on-screen keyboard for those missing keys. lucky dun hv any projects need to type things out wan. hopefully after a few days it'll be ok again. haih. if not i'll have to live with and external keyboard d. T_T

or.............................................

new laptop. which my dad will no doubt kill me for. hah! especially seeing that if my sis makes it into temasek poly then she's also gonna be needing a laptop also. ARGHHHHHHH!

DELL XPS 1530!!!! *drool*

omg someone slap me

2008-03-24T00:08:00.002+08:00

ugh. need to stop sitting cross-legged on chairs man. see what it's done to my feet!!

super bladee fugly!! the skin thickened and darkened! cannot go away sia!!!

oh em geee what have i done?!?!?!??!

but i can't seem to sit still in other positions. unconsciously will sit cross-legged wan. damnit. must break this bad habit. grrr.

***
stupid circuit's finally done. er as in, it's working fine. now all i have to do is rip out all the wires and start wiring them again.

horrified? don't be.

i'm having more headaches with my current wiring. stupid chips. output on one side (red arrow) and hv to connect to input of another chip which is on the OTHER side (green arrow) so the wires have to run all over the breadboard. and the breadboard is just plain ridiculous la. 3 rows of available holes only. wth? when there's FOUR outputs to be connected (wires cannot cross over one another). the messy wires on the right is cuz i ade gave up wiring nicely. no place d so i jus wanted to test whether circuit working fine or not. hah. messy rite?

ah nvm. most of u already hv ??? above ur heads at the technical things.

***
sometimes i really hate being in NUS. it's changed me. in a bad way.

i never really realized the deterioration of my friendships with old friends until i read a friend's new blog and realised i'm not even in her blogroll list anymore.

mostly it's my fault for not signing into MSN (but damn i hate it. lags my comp). and when i do, i rarely even go through my list. can't even rmb who some ppl are especially those with weird nicknames and weird emails.

an old classmate msged me recently saying she'll be down for a few days. but BLADEE hell it's so near finals. everytime i have friends over, it's either during finals or holidays already. bish.

and i don't know why, it's sometimes kinda hard to talk to old friends. especially when u don't know what they're doing. like, no common topic to talk about suddenly. it's hard to tell funny jokes bout friends they don't know (dunno the person's perangai and such). haih.

i miss them. ppl like mei huey, mandy, cheese, tin, suit lin, joanne, ding.

if only we could turn back time. but we never will be able to, won't we.

***

mood : down, despairing.

2008-03-18T15:58:00.002+08:00

feel so down and out. signals etest. did supremely badly. lets just say it's below 30%. haih. when my time was up and the score was shown, i could feel my whole body just went numb with shock.

dunno y i feel this sem is a super not good sem for me. no mood study. always so sleepy. study also don't really understand. think i understand but when do tutorials it's like, can't remember what i just read or studied for previous chapter. like a bucket with a hole at the bottom.

and i get more sleep on weekdays than on weekends. but i can last the whole day on weekends without napping. but on weekdays, can't pay attention in lectures and class cuz sleepy. come back nap. wake up study and feel sleepy again after a while. wth.

maybe i should go study in library. during mid term break, study there whole day and never napped. haih. i also dunno la. fikiran sungguh bercelaru sekarang. banyak perkara yang sedang main a-chi-la-duduk di kepala aku. memeningkan betul.

need to buck up for finals. need to change my studying style. cannot afford to pull down CAP any more. need the damn fish oil and mom's cooking.

Daddy God TASUKETE YOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

crazy busy week ahead

2008-03-12T20:36:00.002+08:00

1. need to fix up circuit and keep testing it. need to keep going lab to test cuz need osciloscope.

2. EE2009 e-test on tues.

3. EE2010 mid term on next sat.

4. 4 tutorials to do.

5. another thing to do which cannot say yet. haha. surprise for someone. blek.

6. animes to watch. =X

2008-03-11T21:01:00.002+08:00

i just finished reading Micheal Crichton's Next. and omg...the book is DAMN boring. it's the worse book by him i've read. too many characters introduced at the beginning until cannot remember who is who. samo it's like, one short chapter on that person, then intro another, then another, and another then suddenly continue story of the first character. and by then ade forgot who the heck that person was.

and so bladee many bio terms. read until sibeh pening. ugh. took me ages to finish the book. not exciting samo. ending hanging.

i can't wait to read Six Sacred Stones and Double Cross!

**

just finished watching La Corda d'Oro and Piano no Mori movie. Damn nice. both animes are bout music. Piano no Mori (Piano Forest) is bout a kid who has no music background but can play beautifully on this piano in the forest and he's the only one who can produce sound from the piano. other ppl play it'll jus emit broken-piano sounds.

La Corda d'Oro is bout a 7 main characters. 6 of whom are music students and one who can see a music fairy thus given a magic violin. they're to perform in a competition in school.

7 characters are Hino Kahoko (magic violin), Tsukimori Len (violin), Tsuchiura Ryoutarou (piano) (my fav guy character), Shimizu Keiichi (cello), Yunoki Azuma (flute), Hihara Kazuki (trumpet) and Fuyuumi (clarinet).

And the whole anime plays a lotta classical songs. so nice. i miss listening to classical songs. ahha. i'm gonna watch this again soon. wheee

but now it's time to study. i one e-test and one mid term next week on top of the usual tutorials and my design project. gehh!! need more time!!

2008-03-05T19:52:00.002+08:00

something is wrong with my health.

took me two week to recover from the flu. but even then, when it's real cold (like lately 'cause keep raining) the nose leaks again. meh

and 3 days ago, suddenly dunno kena food poisoning or what. ate lunch at 12noon but at 6pm the food still not digested fully. stomach like bloated and a lotta gas. vomited and felt better. but after dinner, same thing. and both times had horrible headache. as pain as migraine but it was like whole front of the head.

and now, i've been having headaches everyday. yesterday and today happened during evening time. panadol doesn't seem to work. and appetite is kinda not there. especially at night. been eating bread for breakfast n dinner. sigh. wat's wrong????

***

cabal super hates me man. can't seem to login the game. keep getting either the stupid x-trap problem or the update problem. ask me to update game but when i open the game it says update complete. wth.

aih..nvm la. the game now still full of problems and bugs and watever not. think i'll wait till they fix everything b4 playing.

***

had my design module lab today. fixed a bit of our circuit. actually today's is just an intro to fixing the components. but it's damn fun. very tedious but end results very nice.

the 4 LEDs will light up according to binary 0 to 15. eg if it's 13, LEDs (from left to right) 1, 3 and 4 will light up. so FUN!!! but pain in the butt to cut the wires to the correct length (some ppl not so meticulous like me so all the wires are like arching up all over the place. messy) and striping the wire. stupid wire striper got problem wan sometimes. instead of striping the stupid thing CUT my wire. *bengang* wasting my wires.

somebody buy 'em for me pwease?

2008-02-23T20:48:00.002+08:00

Matthew Reilly - The Six Sacred Stones

huuuaaaahh i soooo love Matt Reilly's works. super non-stop action. and this book is the sequel to Seven Deadly Wonders. it's still in bladee hardcover and costs SGD41.94. *howls*

James Patterson - Double Cross

his latest in the Alex Cross collection. crime fic. it's in softcover but the big edition. ugh. dun like big fonts and big books. hard to lug around. been waaaaaaaiting for this book a while d.

Micheal Crichton - Next

his books are very very technical with lotsa advanced technology concepts. but super interesting. his book 'Prey' got me interested into nanotech. lol. storyline's good also. still wondering whether to buy it or get from book rental store (cheaper). they dun seem to hv it leh. ish.

someone? anyone? pwease?
=P

feeling miserable

2008-02-17T22:56:00.003+08:00

oh my God this is so sucky.

since my immune system is such a weakling, i took great care not to over-stuff myself with CNY goodies. didn't get sick during the CNY.

but then, weakling immune system was probably at it's limit. came back time, james was sick with flu. and i caught the bug also. wth.

damn nose is so stuffed up. and it's not the flowy kind u can easier blow out. it's the super-stubborn-one-big-lump-of-mucus stuck halfway up my nose track and refusing to come out. but sometimes it's flowy. and i'll be all gross bent over the toilet sink with mucus...err...u get the picture.

nose so pain now. keep stuffing tissue up my nose, keep blowing, keep pinching. oh well, at least most of the time only one nostril is stuck. when i sneeze or yawn, then suddenly both nostrils get corked up. X_X

and that's not the end of my misery. kena sore throat also. dunno why but this time the flu and sore throat so persistent. i've been gargling with salt water day and night, drinking lotsa water, took the difflam (always given by UHWC for sore throat) and STILL the damn sore throat doesn't get better. and worst of all, i bought those teeny cute lil shepherd's grapes the other day and i took some this morning (cuz it's like going bad d. some of the grapes got squished and fungus growing on those samo. eek!) and now my throat's killing me. omg. T_T samo forgot to buy fisherman's friend just now. die laaaaaa.

it's off to the docs tmr for me. probably gonna skip 2012 lecture in the morning. i dun think i'm gonna understand him with a stuffed up nose any better than when i'm wide awake. ugh.

"Misery Loves Company."
-When I'm Gone
-Simple Plan

MIA for a while

2008-02-15T13:20:00.002+08:00

short blog post. bloggin in lab X_X

laptop died. hard drive KO. sent to hospital. replace hard drive SGD18X.20. service charge SGD95.

18X.20 + 95 = damn big heart pain!

the DVD-rom costed almost as much as the stewpid hard drive sia. i'm not changing dat. crazy..pay so much for smtg i hardly use. X_X

starting lab d. bai bai

oh ya. Vday is such a lame day. meh....

2008-02-05T12:14:00.000+08:00

since i'll be leaving Sg soon and most probably without internet in Batu Pahat and no Malaysian number until my parents arrive tmr........

wanna wish everyone a very HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!

time again to enjoy the beautiful lantern decorations on houses.

time again to gorge on scrumplicious Chinese delicacies you only get during CNY.

time again to clamp down on your ears due to the noise of lion dance music but enjoy the lion dances all the same.

time again for (illegal) firecrackers to be set off and for me to jump outta my skin at the 1st loud bang, to be deaf for the next few minutes, and for the lil kids to get all scared.

and not forgetting.....ANG POWS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! money money moneyyyy. whee heee!

恭喜发财
新年快樂

funtwo!

2008-02-02T00:29:00.000+08:00

i swear, this guy is the BEST guitarist i've had the pleasure of seeing and hearing. he shot to fame with his Canon in D although no one knew who he was back then. just seeing him play in that vid is enough to drop your jaw and ruin you for other guitarists' playings. ahha. and if i'm not mistaken, he taught himself how to play the guitar. amazing sia. watch on~

Canon in D

Vivaldi's The Four Season

Christmas Carol (rock version)

Overture 1928 (omg the hat is so urahara kisuke @ bleach former 13th squad captain)

Mission Main Theme

I'm Alright (i LUUURRRVE this song. made me bob along and clap my hands. haha)

RIP

2008-01-30T13:08:00.001+08:00

sry for the lack of updates. kinda no inspiration to blog.

**

i'm sure everyone's read bout the freaking bus crash and all the news bout Nian Ning.

much as i sympathize with her family and friends, we shouldn't also forget bout the other 2 victims. one of which is Pang Boon Eng who was (and will always be) Suyin's cousin; who died in the hospital.

such young lives. so much more to give to the world.

flames snuffed out by some *insert expletives here* bus driver who got off with only a broken leg.

sometimes i just wanna go root him out and make him suffer. make him feel the pain Nian Ning and Boon Eng's families are going through now. grrr!

neway, i came across blogs who are passing around this thing by Nian Ning's bf. pass it around if u can.

Please post this on your blog now to help:
Chung Lern and Nian Ning’s families would like all families and friends of the victims, dead or alive, in the Slim River Bus Crash to come forward and join them in taking action against the bus company. Stand up to seek justice for these three innocent individuals, who were all so young and full of life.

If you have a blog, please call out to ANYONE who

knows someone who survived or did not survive

the crash to come forward to join the Lee family.

Make a huge difference, make a huge fuss.

For now, you may contact Lee Chung Lern at chunglern@gmail.com or preferably on his handphone at 012-6670368.
Please also visit http://buscrashnomore.blogspot.com/ and sign the petition.

2008-01-14T23:18:00.000+08:00

it's damn freaking hard to do things when ur RIGHT THUMB hurts like mad.

can't even hold mouse properly. can't even BATHE properly (i did NOT mandi kerbau ok!). can't even wear clothes without wincing. can't even press my bladee transponder and turn the lock properly.

and my forefinger has the i-think-i'm-the-one-that's-hurt syndrome. as in, instead of it taking over poor injured thumbsie's duties, it sorta keeps itself outta 'trouble' and letting poor thumbsie do its painful duty and me wincing every few minutes.

(ok i realise i didn't really make sense there)

nvm.

**

i think i need a new layout.

need a change.

but....no inspiration.

and i'm kinda attached to this layout.

HOW???

argh!

2008-01-14T16:19:00.000+08:00

1. missed my tutorial balloting time. zzz. tot until 5pm. manatau it's until 3pm only. wth. din bring out laptop samo so can't check or ballot during class. arghhh. lucky tmr another round. hopefully still got spaces for the tuts i wanted. but then, will prob crash other tut classes if can't get or other tutors better (no attendance taken neway)

2. cut my thumb on the plastic cover of my drink during lunch. ugh. poor thumb. the other day terkepit at the cluster door. sakit. T_T

3. stupid heavy rain! louse curtains! last time the cloth type can soak the water up. this new ones are like non-water-absorbant. all the water end up on my floor. this time paling 'chia lat'. water reach until almost to the cupboard. grrr. the lousy curtains are like...wet..and hanging outside the window. wahahaha. it's dripping more water on the floor if i put it inside room. bah. let it hang outside until it dries.

2008-01-09T15:24:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wonder....why do guys keep scolding/cursing c_b_i/p_k_. no matter how many times u say it, u still aint gonna get it, u noe.

i dun think i've heard girls going around scolding/cursing l_n j_a_.

why guys dowan to scold/curse their own um...anatomy?

scared it fall of/malfunction (take ur pick)?

=P

(just some musings after being 'treated' to an whole lot of cursing-girls'-anatomy last nite by a certain person we know whose nickname starts wif a C)
^_^

freaking screwed up day.

2008-01-08T15:57:00.000+08:00

parents finally bought Transformers DVD. been wanting it since i watched it in the cinemas.

wanted to play it on tv but mom said the dvd player got problem.

played on laptop and got a nasty shock. put in cd but laptop doesn't detect it.

tot driver not installed when i reformatted.

searched around compaq site. NADA.

directed to microsoft website but the article that solves the problem NOT FOUND. *bengang*

finally found Device Manager and the CD/DVD-rom drive is 'corrupted or missing'. wtf

uninstalled and reinstalled. still 'corrupted or missing'. wtfwtf

googled the device (a matSHITa dvd-ram uj-841s) and found some forums where ppl were complaining that the SHIT thing suddenly stops detecting cds after like 2 weeks or 3 mths.

i've been using it for 1.5 yrs and no problem and the time i decide to reformat my laptop, it konks out on me. jeez.

neway, can't find a solution other than sending it back to HP-Compaq service center and ask them to change the whole driver. ugh.

bad timing samo cuz dunno how long it'll take them to fix it and i need my laptop to print notes (hv to ask chau for help. me no like black and white notes *looks at james's laser printer with distaste* =P) (actually, i can't even print notes now cuz can't install the printer. bah) etc etc. lazy to list them out.

worst of all. I CANNOT SURVIVE WITHOUT MY LAPTOP LAAAAAA.

GODDAMNIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

***

supposed to hv haircut today. walked all the way to the shop and wth. it's closed.

zzz.

he normally closes on 1st day of chinese calendar thing. but he told my mom he'll be open when she go book appointment for me.

i told my mom either monday or tues. but since she said tues he's closed i said monday lor. dunno y suddenly she go book tues pula. samo after dat tell me dunno whether he noes it's the 1st day wan not. haiyo. if not sure then jus book monday at least confirm he open. zzz......now tmr gotta go beg him to cut since leaving on thurs.

haihhhhh. mafan sia.

**

have to start packing.

one word : HATE!

1st post of '08. not like it's special or anything.

2008-01-03T02:38:00.000+08:00

oh tosh. i'm rotting now cuz stupid screamyx is all screwed up. super super super slow connection. can't even load gmail. and i wanna watch my anime!!! wth

anyway, i'll just rant bout the stupid GEM modules i gotta take next sem.

having a bladee headache as per usual during the bidding period. which modules to bid for. which ones won't clash with timetable. familiar thoughts like "ah SHIT!! timetable clash again for a second time for this module??" or "damn. clash wif core module lectures" or "crap! exam clash!!" or "EH!! the module not offered this sem??? wth??" or "ewww yucky module" are probably going around some of NUS-ers minds.

been pre-allocated 4 core modules this sem

EE2006 - digital design
EE2009 - signals (killer module)
EE2010 - system and control
EE2012 - analytical methods in computational stats (or smtg lidat. gah. shit. STATS. my worse nightmare. T_T never been able to do even the simplest stats. used to just hentam whichever formula i THINK is right. which usually isn't. hehe)

one more slot planning to take GEM B (an arts faculty module for non-NUS-ers) so i can SU (jus obtain a pass and grades won't be counted in).

problem is, most of the freaking GEM B modules are from departments like psychology, politics, literature, geography, human resource, economics and sociology. totally BORING modules to an engineer with lotsa BORING reading (long long BORING articles with BORING uncomprehensible contents), extremely long and BORING assignments and BORING essays for finals.

BAH!!!!

HATE HATE HATE THOSE. even though can SU, still have to complete all their BORING assignments and essays and rambling lectures (talking from experience from Singapore Society which is a Socio module). and even worse is when they want the assignments and essays to be in the context of SINGAPORE which we FOREIGNERS have no inkling about wat-so-ever whereas the Singaporeans are all "oh it's so freaking easy".

if we weren't forced to take this extremely BORING modules, i'd never even bother to LOOK at the module titles. unfortunately, NUS is a bitch. we poor engin ppl hv to take science, arts and business modules in addition to our crazy modules while other facs are not forced to taste engineering's modules. grrrr!!

we struggle through BORING essays and readings of nasty arts modules so why can't arts ppl struggle through countless formulas and facts too? but then again, like wat my EE2004 prof said "show arts ppl formulas and they'll just freak out". LOL!!

ok. finally got that off my chest.

finally reduced my choices to either 'cross cultural communication and discourse' and 'understanding uncertainty & stats thinking' (haih. stats lagi).

cross cultural's a new module. dunno wat to expect. no final exam so probably a lotta assignments which means a lotta research and probably interviews and essays. T_T "examines patterns of communication and discourse in different cultures and languages to make students aware of differences which could impact on communication between members of different cultures", "examples of communication involving different cultural and linguistic backgrounds and shows some ways in which linguistic scholarship can lead to a better understanding of the differences and of the ways in which they affect human behaviour" and "Major topics to be covered in the module include various communication systems, cultural systems, and communication situations".

stats is er...stats. -__- it "aims to help the student make rational decisions in an uncertain world", "gain an understanding of the strengths and weaknesses of such a data based approach and learn how and when such an approach is appropriate" and "learn practical skills in interpreting statistical information and gain the ability to critically evaluate statistically based arguments".

oh and did i mention i have 8am classes from tuesdays till fridays?

T__T

***

i finally backed up all of my stuff in comp. i HOPE it's everything. can't seem to think of anything i might've missed.

i jus realise i have a LOT of stuff in my comp. sigh. all my applications and pictures and songs. oh em gee.

gonna reformat tmr. lucky dl-ed all the setup files jus now cuz the connection suddenly damn sibeh slow until can't even load gmail. dunno whether tmr will be lidat also not. gah.

still kinda sked bout reformatting. sked later got some missing things and i dunno wat it is. eeeeeeee

***

latest hot news in malaysia.

Health Minister Datuk Chua Soi Lek caught on DVD with his pants down (literally) and romping around wif a woman who's NOT his wife and has now resigned from his post as Health Minister. (so i guess i should've written ex-Health Minister.)

hah.

actually i din even know who our health minister was until now. looks like now everyone knows who he is.

how embarassing for the country (and to the Chinese community. i tot only another race (=X) is so gatal until pop out so many kids like rabbits). is he trying to be like Bill Clinton or wat.

please la, uncle. so old d samo so gatal. jeez.

really kesian the family. dun care bout him. he deserves it. his family doesn't. imagine the shame. all because the old geezer can't keep his damn pants on and his zip up.

remember those olden day contraption for women? the one like a steel panty wif lock to protect their virginity / prevent them from having sex? someone should make a similar thing for men. especially married men.

*cackles*

shopping spreeeeeeeeee

2007-12-25T23:00:00.000+08:00

wa so nice. 1st time shop until so much in such a short time. needed to many things. some just suka suka wan. deleted those from list d since don't really need them neway.

bought list:
1) 2 romp jeans.
- so niceee. so comfy. me likeys.

2) new slippers
- teva dying again. dowan buy d. very ex and only lasts me one sem. new slippers only RM20. hehe

3) adidas sports shoes.
- been wanting proper sports shoes so can go jogging or play badminton. my sketchers were not proper shoes. damn heavy. meh.

4) tropicana life folder.
- walau this thing sia nice. those cloth bound wan. *heart heart heart* sis bought bag for RM49.90. buy 49.90 above can get the folder for RM15.90 only. and since can only use card for RM50 above (so silly. 10 sen more also they say cannot use card for RM49.90) so dad said if i wan the folder then get it la.

5) new Creative earphones
- my existing one is dying. right side wire insides can see d. O_O those are like....10 years old? used to be my mom's walkman earphones.

6) external hard drive
- i still haven't backed up anything. so lazy. gonna go back sg to reformat d. nyeh

deleted-from-shopping list:
1) nice thick Extreme jacket
- girl's wan size S n M only. the M kinda smallish for jacket. guy's wan only M n L. M is like chub's which is sia huge. X_X and since i only wanna use it for exam, not really worth it since it's RM89.90. either half-freeze with my white jacket or curi chub's to use.

2) backpack bag
- Extreme ones a lotta inner pockets which i like. but design not so nice. Tropicana Life got nice designs but only one inner pocket. bah. and i kinda look cacatish with backpack. lol

3) adidas 3 stripes
- actually been a bit gatal wanan get one for a while d. saw some real nice ones jus now. but decided not to buy. first, EXPENSIVE! second, i dun think i'll be wearing it a lot also. much nicer to trot around in slippers. easy to try shoes when shopping. and can take off to cross-leg up.

still-need-to-go-find list:
1) wallet
- need new one! wanna get those longish kind. saw some Extreme ones at APAC (got some clearance sale there). one white with nice design but easy to get dirty. kena ink = habislaaaahhh. another black with fugly colours but cannot see dirty marks. argh. so undecided. can't find those kinds in shopping mall.

2) sling bag.
- need another one so i won't keep using my Crumpler and getting it dirty. it's a freaking pain in the arse to wash it. dat time wash it and the water was stuck between the outer and inner layer. kinda like a waterskin bag. zzz. saw one pretty nice one at Pyramid Jusco but wanted to look around some more. can't find nicer ones. bah. need to go 1U jusco another day to see whether they have also not.

***

STUPID SAKRAY REFUSES TO PATCH PROPERLY!!!!!!!!!

bengang.

can't play my RO. grrr. stuck wif Angels Online which is quite sien.

gimme my ROooooooooooooooooooo. uuuaaaa

***

i realize i din blog bout genting.

it was....a bit sien.

wrong company leh. went wif parents n sis n sis's 2 frens also went same day.

since parents din wanna go for those gila gila rides, i was stuck wif sis n her 2 frens.

zzzzzz

and it was freaking sia sibeh bladee hell cold. heavy mist dat day.

think exam hall times 5. T_T

teeth chattering. hands almost froze up and fell off. =P

and it rained.

so lotsa outdoor rides were closed especially the roller coasters.

and went on haji. so.......big crowd. which meant lining up for bout 30 mins just for a less than 2 min roller coaster ride. zzzz

sien sia.

and i din go in casino. wth. finally of age and din go.

parents la!!! say cannot go in unless dress formally. (apparently last time they went this was the rule) but day after mom's sis called n said no la, got ppl even wear slippers in. arghhhhhhhhhhh!! WASTED WASTED WASTEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

-_______-

nothing else to talk bout d. meh.

***

bah. i'm so tired today.

good bye and blessed christmas!

O_O

2007-12-20T01:36:00.000+08:00

squinting at tiny fonts in notes + stare at too much junk for exam + drama/anime marathon + lie down while reading story book + bad lighting = eye power go down

err...like smtg wrong wif the equation leh. lol

not that i'm complaining. hehe

***

finally bought my external HD. been thinking bout whether to get one for bout a year. lol

cannot tahan d. need a storage so can reformat laptop. the lag is driving me insane.

2.5" maxtor basics. 160GB. RM329.

bought new earphones also. creative brand.

and the little semicircle thingys to lift the back of laptop wan. my laptop heats up very fast. sigh.

***

ouran high school host club is FARNEEEEE. lolz.

***

i siao d.

glares at facebook

2007-12-18T23:37:00.000+08:00

more rants.

so james lied to me. pif. said the full name cannot change. so i didn't wanna create an account using james's suggestion of putting lim eeee syen for my name. -___-"

suyin said can change. i believe her. so tried out 'syen lim'.

and the dumb facebook din reject that. weirdo.

*huffs*

tried to change name to just syen. rejected.

change to syen syen. rejected.

change to syen syen syen. accepted.

wat the eff?

@(*&#@(*#&*(!&@!

siao facebook!

and it's so sia irritating to use.

upload pic also need to verify it. goodness.

so many things in it. gonna take ages to familiarize myself. sigh.

***

james complained no update. (i jus updated leh, u monkey!!)

so....

update. on. . . .drama?

cuz that's all that i've been doing lately.

1 week since i've been back and i finished saiunkoku monogatari (last 4 ep of season 1 and 8 ep of season 2), devil beside you (20 episodes) and finishing why why love (15 episodes).

i'm like...stuck to the laptop.

but i can't get enough of mike he!!! so good looking!! *drools*

but somehow his pics are not so nice. must see him act. super good actor.

from devil beside you. rainie yang looks way better in DBY.

DBY also. (*jeles* i wan share his jacket!)

mike he @ xiao mei (小美)

from why why love. he looks better in WWL. lol. rainie's hair in WWL not nice!

and now my mom and sis are watching WWL also. ehhehehehe

***

stupid RO patches dl-ing damn sia slow. grrrr. and somehow the patch got problem on pc. bish. need to wait till get external hard drive only can xfer the thing to lappie. stupid patch is more than 1G big. 2 parts samo. bah~

***

i failed my DT1101 (dota). hahaha. just now play a while and play like a damn freaking NOOB. *hides face in shame* can't farm properly also. T_T

*blames super big mouse i'm not used to*

ehhehe

***

mom said i put on weight. a lot.

damn.

***

SEP round 2 open.

still deciding whether to go.

argh

***

going genting on thurs.

if only can ask chub to send over his nice thick jacket.

heh

***

cannot think d laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

james u satisfied d? <_<

***

-n-

hahaha. fated.

2007-12-17T03:15:00.000+08:00

after hearing so much bout it. . .

after opening and closing the page dunno how many times. . .

i thought, oh wat the hell. might as well get an account so can get pics easier.

so i opened the page once again.

clicked the sign in button.

filled up the fields. . .

hit create account. . .

and got this. . .

orh. nvm lor. got other ppl named Syen neway. so change. . .

and got THIS pulak. . .

wat the hell? i give u my full name u tell me u dun approve? wanna die ar!?!?!

even this didn't work.

full chinese name also cannot!

celaka. cis bedebah.

i KNEW this thing was lousy. bah

really not fated to have an account in this stupid piece of junk networking bin.

bleh.

hectic, crazy pre-exam and super packed post-exam

2007-12-09T01:18:00.000+08:00

[added pics at bottom]

Pre + during exams

messy study area in 4a.

tension until cannot eat?
no problem.
mama alison will feed and papa james will encourage! =P

tired of sitting in the same position?
if u wanna sit like him, make sure ur butt's not too heavy.
terpelanting belakang baru tau. o_O

and the toilet is not in the room -___-"

sleeping position 1.

sleeping position 2.

'wake up and study' squad with their wasabi (the green tube in nicholas's hands)
XD

oh well. it's over.

time for POST EXAM!

Day 1. Thursday.

1st stop : VivoCity
Lunch at Thai Express. Watched The Golden Compass. Nice graphics. Not nice storyline. Too vague. Dunno wat's happening half the time. X_X

2nd stop : Orchard Road.

Xander KO-ing in MRT and hitting his head on the window behind.

Christmas tree in front of Plaza Singapura

Along Orchard Road.

Bored ah peks.

Christmas tree in front of Paragon. Last year's tree was way nicer.

Reindeers in front of Lucky Plaza.

a bunch of wiped-out guys.
(y2, ryan chub, wei feng, xander)

3rd stop : Clarke Quay.
1st pub we tried to go in...cannot. 23 above only. -___-"
went to '1 nite stand' instead.
alot tired out. but still enjoyed and unwound.

Day 2 : Friday
MSL bbq day!!!
Rained the whole day so everywhere was wet wet wet and cold cold cold.
But lucky stopped raining at nite.
So we bbq-ed till we dropped.
No pics. sowie. too busy turning sausages and chicken wings and making dirty jokes regarding sausages and uh......nemermind. :P

Day 3 : Saturday
Visit Alison's new place day!!
Helped her shift her remaining stuff also.
Nice place. very spacious living room and kitchen.
room also big (well, bigger than PGP room la duh)
munched on pizza, played cards, watched tv, took 'family' pic and all-girls pic where we kept laughing and had to tahan while taking the pic. pics wif suyin. will upload soon. love those pics!

family pic.
(pakcik yen yoong, makcik xander, leo, john, chau, sarah, alison, suyin, carly, me, pei suen)
(missing : chub, baltic, ryan, james, wei feng)

the girls lying on the floor

the girls looking down at the cam and covering double chins =P

went orchard wif chau, john and carly. bought the shoulder pad for my crumpler. damn strap's been killing my shoulder for a while.

went to bugis to find hp pouch but they didn't have the one i wanted. bah.

crammed like sardines in all the MRT rides. siao. freaking holiday season + sale + weekend = horrifying public transportation rides. GAH!

back to vivo for dinner with suyin, suyin's friend, alison, y2, carly, leo, chub and baltic.
chub and baltic's bus back to pg at 9pm. leo n carly 10am sunday. suyin 7pm sunday flight.
so...kinda last dinner with them for this sem. heh.
thai express again (we're suckers for thai express..cept baltic who only has 2 choices of food to eat since he can't or dowan to eat spicy food. lol.)

walau rambling d. brain shutting down. 3 days of non-stop running around = brain dead.

off to sleep. GOING HOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!

2007-12-08T21:18:00.000+08:00

i know it's hard.
i know it hurts real bad inside.
i know you put on a smile and let me think everything is all right.
i know the tears just want to spill over.
i know questions are spinning round and round in your head.
i know it seems like nothing will be all right.
i know you just want to scream and shout and let it all out.
i know you feel like you just want to shrivel up and die.

but in the midst of all that, do you hear a soft voice asking, "will you let Me write your love story?"

i did. and i know it's going to be the most perfect love story of all.

2007-12-06T10:40:00.000+08:00

it's over.

now's the time for a change.........

but to wat?

kanasai electromagnetics!

2007-12-03T14:41:00.001+08:00

this stupid damn paper is so gonna drag down my CAP so badly.

stupid proving questions so damn hard.

i think more than 30 marks gone d.

cannot finish every single question sia. got small small parts cannot get.

UUAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!

hate hate hateeeee

and got one freaking gross China guy sitting next row diagonally.

keep burping those loud wet burps.

damn gross ok!

everyone around him keep giving him disgusted looks whenever he burps.

jeez. last sem got one paper also sat near him. burped his way through the whole paper also. cannot concentrate sia!

hope tmr wont sit near him. if not.......die.

bleargh.

what can i say? we need to destress!

2007-11-19T19:19:00.000+08:00

click to enlarge

laughter the best medicine

2007-11-17T01:07:00.000+08:00

watch the guy on the left. XD

***

went sheares hall for supper. super funny thing happened.

ordering food. the aunty will write down name n call later for collection of food.

chub ordered food and alison asked the aunty to write his name as 'chubby'. lol. she did btw.

then uncle will call out name for the food. and he laughed when he saw 'chubby' on the paper.

too bad chub was there. he told me n alison we should've taken him far away so he can shout 'chubby'. hahaha

but then. almost to the end, alison went to buy food for friend.

and she asked the aunty to write chubby again. and the uncle said he'll shout it later. LOLZ

and guess what.

aunty called out 1st. wif honk samo. XD. but she shout too soft. uncle took the honk. and shouted "CHUBBY" so loud the whole canteen can hear.

ahhahahhahahahahahahhahahahahahha

and chub samo got up and went to collect alison's food. ahahha. damn funny.

his face so disbelieving.

after that his face was reddish. ears also red. ahhahaha

*peet poot peet poot* CHUBBY!!!!!!

*falls over laughing again*

thanks for the laugh, chub. and alison for making it happen. =D

***

nothing to laugh about here. <_< unless u wanna laugh at my klutziness. T_T

took shortcut. climb over railing. got distracted. slipped. left leg was between the bars. thigh hit the bar at the bottom. hence the horrendous bruise. damn sia pain. X(

***

dinner with cousins and rascal tasha. she suddenly shouted out. 'MEI MEI TIGGER!!' LOLZ. damn cute la she.

she samo feed us dragon fruit. spear wif fork then ask us open mouth big big. hehe

***

THES 2007 rankings

2007-11-11T12:40:00.000+08:00

and it's that time again where uni rankings come out, malaysia finds out it's uni rankings are miserably dismal and all sorts of stupid, lame excuses are given from ppl who simply refuse to see the problem that's dancing on the tips of their noses and pinching their butts.

sad to say. NUS dropped from it's 19th place ranking last year to 33rd this year. T_T oh well. at least we're still in the top 50 compared to a certain neighbouring country whose rankings dropped outta top 200. i wonder wat kinda slogans will appear in UM this time. last time they were so proud at being top 200 instead of hiding their face in shame.

i found "Education in Malaysia" blog highly entertaining on the two posts made on the rankings.
(italics are my comments)

Top 200 No More
Many would have reluctantly been anticipating that no Malaysian universities will be ranked within the Top 200 by the Times Higher Education Supplement (THES)last year, although we came very close with Universiti Malaya (UM) ranked at 192 while Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia (UKM) ranked a little better at 185.

Yes, in the just released rankings table by THES, no Malaysian universities are listed on it. Critics are obviously going to have a field day. But they are certainly not going to be raising many issues which we do not already know. The fact that our universities are not competitive, are not rigourous in nature, do not promote and encourage merit and the total lack of transparency in admission and recruitment exercises served the perfect recipe for continual decline in global recognition and quality. World University rankings at some point in time. It didn't happen

For the latest summary rankings table, you can get it here.

What are our vice-chancellors and Ministers going to say next? (Click here to read what they said last year) That the rankings are irrelevant? That they are inaccurate? That they fail to take into consideration that our universities are laden with "national interest" concerns? That we will speed up the recruitment of foreign lecturers and students?

This new set of data of course makes a complete mockery of the maiden attempt to rank our local universities, as blogged by Kian Ming recently. While the effort to increase transparency is laudable, the sheer lack of rigour in the local university ranking analysis renders the result superficial at best, misleading at worst. Universiti Sains Malaysia was ranked "excellent" for example, in the local official rankings table, but is clearly no where to be found in the THES or the Shanghai Jiaotung University ranking tables. At the same time, 6 other local universities were ranked "good". Has this become the manner by which the Malaysian government define mediocrity? That being "mediocre" (or worse) can be translated as "excellent" or "good"?

This blog found its "kick" sometime in November 2005, almost exactly 2 years ago, when we exposed the laughable mistake made by the surveyors when UM and USM were ranked 89th and 111th respectively in 2004. The then vice-chancellor, who had to be removed ignorably, Datuk Professor Dr Kapten Hashim Yaakob, celebrated UM's achievement like he won the Nobel Prize. Since then, despite the declared of objective of improving the university's rankings by 5 places each year, UM tanked to 169th in 2005, 192 in 2006 and now out of the official 200 list.

Prof Dr Nik Mustapha Raja Abdullah, vice-chancellor of UKM has also pledged in January 2006 when he was newly appointed that it will become a Top-80 university by 2010. I wonder if he'll make the same public announcement today. (top 80 from the bottom probably)

Possibly, the vice-chancellor of UM will now use the Organisation of Islamic Countries (OIC) university ranking table as the de facto rankings table, since she proudly declared in March this year that we are ranked 13th there.

"It is the first time they have come up with such rankings and the top 10 positions were taken up by Turkish universities. It is an honour that UM is in the 13th position while Universiti Sains Malaysia is at the 29th spot," she said.

Or for that matter, we might as well create a table where the world's top 500 universities are excluded, and possibly we might be ranked 1st. Or a table for the Malay archipelago ex-Singapore...

It is sad that our university administrators, our Ministry officials and the Government refuses to recognise the very simple and basic problems causing the decline in our local universities (as mentioned above). Even as the Minister of Higher Education, Dato' Mustapa Mohamed launched the much-hyped higher education action plan, the Prime Minister, Datuk Seri Abdullah Ahmad Badawi himself was quoted as saying that "student intake in these universities would not be based on race but the enrolment must reflect the country's ethnic diversity." (faints) (ahahha all words no action. eat them back up la. not freaking gonna happen in the near future if u keep wrapping the bumis in cotton wool)

I'm certain others will pick up this thread and keep the "conversation" going even as I don't write as much these days. I should be able to get my hands on the full report sometime tomorrow and hopefully I'll get to provide a more in-depth review of the current situation. And you can be certain that Parliamentary Opposition leader, Sdr Lim Kit Siang will do the same in Parliament.

At a cursory glance, the biggest gainers this round appears to be universities from the United Kingdom, University College of London at 9th (2006: 25th), Kings College, London at 24th (46th), University of Edinburgh 23rd (33rd) as well as the 2 universitys from Hong Kong at 18th (33) and 38th (50) respectively. The universities from China and Singapore declined, but are well within the Top 100. Well, more later.

THES 2007 Rankings: Denial Syndrome Persists
There is plenty to blog about with regards to the latest Times Higher Education Supplement (THES) World University Rankings table which was released and blogged here yesterday. I've managed to obtain the full report earlier.

All of our universities which are "ranked" have fallen in positions. Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia (UKM) fell to 309th from 185th in 2006, Universiti Malaya (UM) to 246th (192) and Universiti Sains Malaysia to 307th (277) (wa. they can't even say they're in the top 300 now for UKM n USM. top 400? XD)

One point however, sticks out. In a press conference yesterday held by some of the local vice-chancellors, the denial syndrome, a disease which has enveloped our academia has clearly not been cured since the days of Kapten Datuk Professor Dr Hashim Yaakob.

The vice-chancellors, including Datuk Rafiah Salim, of UM, gave several excuses for the dismal performance by Malaysian universities.

Firstly, they blamed the "change" in methodology for the drastic fall in rankings. It sounded as if the methodology was specifically tweaked to disadvantage Malaysian universities when in fact, it was tweaked to ensure greater transparency and accuracy. (u're just too lazy to embrace the change and produce some good results la. stop giving silly lil excuses. if other ppl can do it why not you?)

As highlighted in the main THES rankings report:
In addition, we have strengthened our safeguards against individuals voting for their own university in the peer review part of the analysis." This improvement in methodology is certainly fair as it prevents the bias to vote for one's own institution.
And the result of the above change in methodology, as specifically highlighted in the full THES report, was the corresponding decline in Malaysian universities rankings!
But we suspect that some Malaysian and Singaporean institutions have lost out because of our increased rigour over voting for one’s own university, and there are no Malaysian universities in this top 200.
This clearly indicates that Malaysian universities were ranked better in previous years in part due to Malaysian academicians ranking their own universities highly when completing the survey! That's academic honesty for you, a la Malaysia.

Secondly, what was disgraceful, was Datuk Rafiah's attempts to de-sensitise Malaysia's dismal performance by arguing that Singapore suffered the same fate as well:
"Even the National University of Singapore (NUS) has dropped to the 33rd spot when it was always within the top 10."
Here, she is wrong on 2 counts. Firstly, NUS was and has never been a Top 10 ranked university. Last year, it was ranked 19th, falling 14 places to 33rd currently. It was ranked 22nd in 2005. Hence Datuk Rafiah Salim is guilty of citing wrong figures to prove her point, with the unintended consequence of epitomising the general quality of local research. (walau wtf? u wanna compare 33rd placing wif 246th placing? are u an imbecile or wat? and get ur facts right la u cotton-wool-stuffed woman!)

On the second count, NUS remains well within the Top 50 of the world and has not fluctuated more than 14 places over the past 4 years while UM tanked year after year! I don't know how Datuk Rafiah equated UM's plight to NUS's.

Then Datuk Rafiah complained that "The way [she] look at it, smaller countries like Malaysia are bound to lose out as THES has introduced new criteria which is peer review and has changed the citation and list of publications." (Malaysia small ur head la. brainless git. small in terms of brain efficiency i can believe la.)

Again, it's a case of self-pity which will not take Malaysian academic standards anywhere. Singapore is some 480 times smaller than Malaysia in terms of land area and 6 times smaller in terms of population. That didn't seem to stop them from having 2 universities ranked within the Top 100. (hah! *thumbs nose at the brainless woman*) Other developing countries such as South Africa, Mexico, Taiwan and Brazil also has universities ranked within the Top 200.

Finally, she asked for more money. (ya more money to go into ur pocket and to cushion ur backside)
If we want to compete with some of the top universities in the world, first we have to be in the same league. Right now, we are not. One way to overcome that is through adequate funding.
No, Datuk Rafiah, the first thing to do isn't asking for new funding. Giving lots of money to half-baked researchers and academics isn't going to improve the quality of the universities by very much. (hahaha i really LoL-ed at this. half-baked researches. hahaha. half-baked admin also) It's not too dissimilar to the Government's effort of launching our so-called "space programme" by paying the taxi fare for a Malaysian to go to space. Or for that matter, more money could just mean more funds for the academically meaningless pursuit of worthless coloured medals.

The first things to do, has to be the following (in simple terms, as elaborated in other blog posts):
Recruit the best lecturers and academicians from Malaysia and all over the world, instead of focusing on race, nationality and patronage.

Enrol the best students qualified for each faculty, instead of the current ambiguous and seemingly random university and course allocation.

Practice transparency in all aspects of the academia, from recruitment to promotions of academics, as well as setting clearly defined minimum entry requirements into every course and publishing such data post every enrolment cycle.
The above are well within the rights and functions of both the Ministry of Higher Education and the university administrators. The question is, whether the authorities are willing to face up to the challenges and weakness of our current system, and take the hard but absolutely necessary actions to raise the bar.

Without the required political will, Malaysian universities will be doomed to further demise particularly if we are preoccupied with treating the superficial symtoms such as recruiting more foreign students from 3rd world countries, instead of tackling the core issues.

I was happy to provide Datuk Rafiah Salim the benefit of the doubt when she was first appointed as UM's vice-chancellor as blogged here. However, her recent statements, her immature treatment of Dr Azmi Sharom plus her outburst at the recently concluded student leaders' meet certainly lowered my confidence in her ability to turn things around. For someone who claimed that raising UM's ranking on THES is one of her 3 core tasks, she definitely appears to be failing her own benchmarks, and failing badly at that.

yeah well. thank God i'm not studying in malaysian uni. i'd be so damn ashamed to say i came from there and have ppl laffing at having a bunch of nitwits for uni admin.

cute + rascal = tasha

2007-11-10T21:10:00.000+08:00

drawing on my arm <_<

holding her 'handphone'. i on music on my phone. she also on on hers. -.-"

my fav pic of the bunch.

finally she's drawing on the right thing

dunno wat she doing here

munching her 2nd banana of the day. ownself run to kitchen take banana and peel samo

2007-11-10T03:26:00.000+08:00

終わりも見えず　走り抜ける
安らぎは遠く　姿も無く

孤独を封じ込めて
鎖しかける眼差し

girls vs guys

2007-11-06T13:20:00.001+08:00

Guys drink to forget about the girl...
Girls drink to think back about the guy...

When guys are in love, they become poor.
When girls are in love, they become pretty...

Guys can forget, but cannot forgive...
Girls can forgive, but cannot forget..

Guys care the most about the quantity of love...
Girls care the most about the quality of love..

Guys break-up when they feel love from another girl...
Girls break-up when they feel the feeling of separation from her man...

Guys feel curiosity towards all girls...
Girls feel curiosity towards guys who are interested in her..

When guys are heartbroken, they try to forget about the girl by going out
with another girl...
When girls are heartbroken, they try to find his characteristics from
another guy...

Guys wish to be her first love....
Girls wish to be his last love...

"Women are nothing but trouble,
And Men are nothing but trouble seekers."

2007-11-06T12:01:00.000+08:00

dedicated to xiao chen. who can also write a whole long list of things she has said b4 thinking and had us laffing in fits. hehehehhe

***

Think before you speak...

Here are six reasons why you should think before you speak - the last one is great!

Have you ever spoken and wished that you could immediately take the words back...

Here are the Testimonials of a few people who did....

FIRST TESTIMONY:

I walked into a hair salon with my husband and three kids in tow and asked loudly, "How much do you charge for a shampoo and a blow job?" I turned around and walked back out and never went back.

My husband didn't say a word... he knew better.

SECOND TESTIMONY:

I was at the golf store comparing different kinds of golf balls. I was unhappy with the women's type I had been using. After browsing for several minutes, I was approached by one of the good-looking gentlemen who works at the store. He asked if he could help me.

Without thinking, I looked at him and said, "I think I like playing with men's balls."

THIRD TESTIMONY:

My sister and I were at the mall and passed by a store that sold a variety of candy and nuts.

As we were looking at the display case, the boy behind the counter asked if we needed any help.

I replied, "No, I'm just looking at your nuts." My sister started to laugh hysterically.

The boy grinned, and I turned beet-red and walked away. To this day, my sister has never let me forget.

FOURTH TESTIMONY :

While in line at the bank one afternoon, my toddler decided to release some pent-up energy and ran amok. I was finally able to grab hold of her after receiving looks of disgust and annoyance from other patrons. I told her that if she did not start behaving "right now" she would be punished.

To my horror, she looked me in the eye and said in a voice just as threatening,

"If you don't let me go right now, I will tell Grandma that I saw you kissing Daddy's pee-pee last night!"

The silence was deafening after this enlightening exchange. Even the tellers stopped what they were doing. I mustered up the last of my dignity and walked out of the bank with my daughter in tow.

The last thing I heard as the door closed behind me, were screams of laughter.

FIFTH TESTIMONY:

Have you ever asked your child a question too many times? My three-year-old son had a lot of problems with potty training and I was on him constantly. One day we stopped at Taco Bell for a quick lunch
in between errands. It was very busy, with a full dining room. While enjoying my taco, I smelled something funny, so of course I checked my seven-month-old daughter, and she was clean.

Then I realized that Danny had not asked to go potty in a while. I asked him if he needed to go, and he said "No". I kept thinking "Oh Lord, that child has had an accident, and I don't have any clean clothes with me." Then I said, "Danny, are you SURE you didn't have an accident?" "No," he replied.

I just KNEW that he must have had an accident, because the smell was getting worse.

So, I asked one more time, "Danny, did you have an accident?"
This time he jumped up, yanked down his pants, bent over, spread his cheeks and yelled "SEE MOM, IT'S JUST FARTS!!" While 30 people nearly choked to death on their tacos laughing, he calmly pulled up his pants and sat down. An older couple made me feel better, thanking me for the best laugh they'd ever had!

LAST BUT NOT LEAST TESTIMONY:

This one had most of the state of Michigan laughing for 2 days and a very embarrassed female news anchor who will, in the future, likely think before she speaks. What happens when you predict snow, but don't get any? We had a female news anchor who, the day after it was supposed to have snowed and didn't, turned to the weatherman and asked: "So Bob, where's that 8 inches you promised me last night?" Not only did HE have to leave the set, but half the crew did too, they were laughing so hard!

Now, didn't that feel good? Pass it on to someone you know who needs a laugh, and remember...

we all say things we don't really mean, so think before you speak.

2007-11-04T11:05:00.000+08:00

omg this article is today's Star Online is just so good i HAD to put it up.

Solve brain drain problem

BRAIN drain has been an issue of concern for Malaysia in the past decade and is far from being solved. In fact, it does not look like it will be solved any time soon.

Despite the many pleas from the Government, calls on patriotism and the different carrots dangled, the number of people leaving the country has doubled over the past few years. There are easily more than 30,000 highly qualified Malaysians working abroad to date.

Malaysia has lost many scientists, doctors, academics and professionals, who it badly needs, to Singapore, Australia, the United States, Britain and other countries.

Now even our skilled and semi-skilled workforce is flying off to greener pastures while Malaysia, ironically, grows highly dependent on foreign labour. After all, neighbouring countries such as Australia, New Zealand and Singapore offer much better pay, incentives and benefits, and their own citizens are unwilling to take up such jobs.

The many migration agents in Kuala Lumpur will tell you that Australia offers great employment opportunities for individuals with “in-demand” skills including hairstylists, chefs and mechanics. In fact, some 4,000 Malaysians had migrated there last year.

Malaysia is already facing a shortage in frontline staff in the hospitality and service industry. If this trend continues, we will go deeper into the red where human resource is concerned.

Certain ministries have drawn up special programmes to reverse the brain drain. The Finance Ministry is giving personal and vehicle tax exemptions. The Science, Technology and Innovation Ministry (Mosti) has reviewed incentives to lure back Malaysian scientists living abroad. The Human Resources Ministry is making venture capital, financial assistance and research development facilities more accessible.

However, all these efforts seem to be missing the mark. The Human Resources Ministry needs to do thorough and honest research if it wants nothing but the truth. The truth may hurt, but any proposed remedies have to address the problems directly.

I would say there are a few obvious reasons for the brain drain. The most glaring one is the difference in income. A Malaysian graduate can expect a good starting salary of RM1,800 whereas a Singaporean graduate commands at least S$2,500 (RM5,750). Let’s not even mention those in more developed countries. In fact, a graduate’s salary here has not changed much over the past decade.

A less explicitly mentioned reason is the arguably discriminatory policies and practices in the public sector. For instance, many talented academicians have left local universities because, in the past, they felt that priority was given to bumiputras for promotions and research funding.

Top students who do not get their course of choice at public universities are not only accepted by foreign universities but also given scholarships to study there.

Singapore is attracting many of our public university (IPTA) rejects, after which the fresh graduates are required to work there for at least three years. By that time, most Malaysians would have gotten used to the income and lifestyle, and would receive permanent resident status.

There are also those who feel they are migrating for a better quality of life. Australia and New Zealand, for example, provide wonderful retirement benefits for its citizens and permanent residents. Human rights are also seen to be stronger in those countries, which is not surprising why many of our intellectuals have moved there.

The root of the problem has been obvious for a while now, but nobody has been willing to take a direct look at it. It is time we do something and not continue to stick our heads in the sand.

)(&$@)(#&_(@!&#

2007-10-31T08:44:00.000+08:00

my gummy bears got stolen.

T_T

i just bought them yesterday samo.

dunno when it got stolen but i think it was when i went down to study.

james was there also. i went back room to get some notes. came back james also went back room. i din notice whether the gummy bears were there not.

later on after james went back to sleep i suddenly realized my gummy bears not there. called james tot he took but he said din. said he din see it also and mayb i left it in room. i also not very sure whether i brought it down not so i just let it go.

came back room time and it's not here!! zzzzzz

damnit! my gummy bears!!! who took my poor lil bears?!?!?! T____T

sweets also wanna steal. jeez. people nowadays.

***

wanted to dl a song last nite but dunno title. only know lyrics. so did a google search.

and google gave me an error msg

We're sorry...

... but your query looks similar to automated requests from a computer virus or spyware application. To protect our users, we can't process your request right now.

We'll restore your access as quickly as possible, so try again soon. In the meantime, if you suspect that your computer or network has been infected, you might want to run a virus checker or spyware remover to make sure that your systems are free of viruses and other spurious software.

We apologize for the inconvenience, and hope we'll see you again on Google.
To continue searching, please type the characters you see below:

#)*&$)@(&# wat the hell?? i type 'puppy' into search also it give me that msg.

so scanned laptop last night. and guess wat....

trojans detected in OrCAD demo files. which i had to dl for my PSPICE (program to analyze circuits. need for one of my modules). WALAUUUUUU!!! stupid NUS never scan the file properly wan meh??!?!?!

my headaches for the following week

2007-10-27T00:40:00.000+08:00

~~1. Monday - EE2004 tutorial~~
2. Monday - EE2011 tutorial
3. Tuesday - SS discussion group. need to watch this week's webcast also. damn
4. Wednesday - EE2011 quiz. must go through notes and tutorial and supp problem questions. lucky 5 MCQs and all ques taken from tut + supp problems only. ahha. figures also won't change i think. =D [halfway d!]
5. Wednesday - E4 lab. report pass up on monday. so not so bad.
6. Friday - EE2005 assignment 9 [done half. stuck at ques 2. zzz. can't u bladee hell give R1//R2 value??? yish!]
7. Friday - Genes and society essay by 5pm.

WAT THE HELL WHERE GOT ENOUGH TIME TO DO EVERYTHING??!!!

RASHES!!

2007-10-22T23:48:00.000+08:00

i've been plagued with rashes today. suddenly my neck n upper back itched like crazy during electromag lecture. after lecture came back and my whole upper back n neck was red. put gwee hwa balm n after that ok. but during genes and society lecture suddenly itched again. lower back, tummy area and upper arms. during dinner i showed suyin and she said it's rashes. dunno how i kena also. prob allergic to the cheese sandwich i had during lunch (1st time i eat dat).

after dinner, my whole tummy area, lower back, upper thighs (front n back) and behind the knees all red. suyin gave me calamile lotion. after shower i put. white all over. -___- samo it smelt like buncho paints. the lotion din really work. worked on tummy n back but the thighs didn't. then started spreading to front of lower thighs and hands. then my feet. sigh. damn itchy sia. can't even concentrate on my lab manual.

by faith, i believe i'm righteous. and my healing is complete. Jesus bore my itch and my rash on the cross. His broken body is payment so that i can be whole and healthy. Amen

some pics. don't be grossed out.

left hand. see the white middle patch and the redness surrounding it? the white part is bengkak.

left thigh. the redness at the left lesser d. only at the edge now. look like water stains on walls. the lil red dots also bengkak.

side view of left leg. see at the side of the knee? like water stains rite?

underside of right leg at the beginning.

top view of right leg. those red dots look like mosquito bites after a day.

right hand. before this was at the underside of wrist. then put balm then ok but it spread to the side pula =.= now the knuckles there also got.

right leg behind after putting balm fr ryan. ran outta gwee hwa balm. sigh

spread to feet. right foot. it's redder than it looks.

right leg. before this got a few small 'islands' of bengkaks. then suddenly they grow and merged become so big. the lower part also. T_T

left leg. suddenly lidat. i dunno y also.

left hand. spreading.

damn. now my elbow joints top there also got. both arms. and looks like spreading to the elbows on the left side. itching. trying not to scratch it cuz it'll onli spread it more. sigh.

met up wif ryan (to get balm), james (get lab report), chub (show him rashes) and y2 (who was in room 4a) and they all were shocked over the rashes. sigh.

the balm ryan gave doesn't seem to work as well as gwee hwa balm. james tot he got. but he can't find it. damn.

tmr better go see doc just in case. hopefully don't hv to reschedule lab. eh actually reschedule to thurs or fri also good. hehehe. then report hand in on monday or tuesday. more time to do!! haha but i won't curse myself. XP

tagged + updates

2007-10-19T00:15:00.000+08:00

1. The person who tagged you is:
xiao chen

2. Your relationship with him/her:
tomodachi

3. 5 Impressions you have of him/her:
-likes to talk a lot =P
-hardworking
-very dedicated to NES
- dresses up nicely
- a bit cuckoo sometimes

4. Most memorable thing he/she has done for you:
err..can't remember. oops!

5. Most memorable words he/she said to you:
(walau i dun rmb these kinda things sia. pls dun kill me xc X_X)

[no.6 went missing]

7. If she becomes your lover, things she has to improved on will be:
the hell -____- wat kinda ques is this man.

8. If she becomes your enemy, you will:
spank her upside down XD

9. If she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:
she spanked me upside down? =P

10. The most desirable thing you want to do for her now is:
desirable jus sounds so wrong la. but it'll prob be reduce her NES meetings? lol

11. Your overall impression of her is:
positive in the x y and z directions. (electromagnetics speaking)

12. How do you think people around you will feel about you:
-____- i dunit to think. I KNOW! that i'm an evil lil cretin. T_T saddening huh...

13. The characteristic you love about yourself is:
innocent lil angel!!

14. The characteristic you hate about yourself is:
too lazy

15. The most ideal person you want to be is:
Jesus~~

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them:
thanks for being in my world. love u guys to bits~

17. Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you.
1. james
2. jun yen (still feels damn weird calling him dat)
3. chau
4. john
5. alison
6. baltic
7. kaka dar
8. biskut yan
9. judy
10. ryan

Who is no. 6 having relationship with:
walau so many la how to rmb XD

Is no.9 male/female:
female

If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing:
CANNOT! KAKA DAR IS MIIINNNEEEEEEE

When you last chat with no 3.:
this afternoon

What kind of music that no 8 likes:
er.......rock?

Does no.1 have any siblings:
one older bro and one younger sis

Will you woo no 3:
number 1 : i'm not les (cept wif kaka dar.hehe). number 2 : john will kill me D=

How bout no 7:
ooo..ade my dar la

Is no 4 single:
nope

What's the surname of no 5:
lai lai laiiiiii~ XD

What's the hobby of no 4:
swt i dunno. chau, chau and..chau? kekkekekeke

Do no 5 and 9 get along:
they don't know each other.

Where is no 2 studying at:
NUS!

Say something casual about no 1:
messy eater =.=

Have you tried developing feelings for no 8:
EW HOLY CRAP NO! but he's nice to bully though. hehe

Where does no 9 live:
near ang mo kio!

What color does no 4 like:
swt ask chau la -___-" aku tak tau punya!

Are no 5 and 1 best friends:
nah...

Does no 7 like 2:
haha nope. don't know each other

How did you get to know no 2:
er...MSL? forgot hu intro d.

Does no 1 have any pets:
nope

Is no 7 the sexiest person in the world:
YESH!!!! lol.

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saw this the other day while having lunch with cell group. gave me a shock. jaw literally dropped open. -___-"

went over the theng theng's place to see the new baby. no name yet. ahah. they're still searching. asked me to help find also since they kinda busy taking care of the baby. wheee~

carried by her paternal grandma. damn cute man. so tiny!

wake up d! big eyes like tasha last time.

the rascal herself. i asked her wat name she wanna give her mei mei..and she said TIGGER!! zzzzzz. super notty just now. throw tantrum. samo beat ppl. and now got toy handphone which no one can touch. -___-" anyone touch she snatch back and scold.

she wanted to play her 'computer' but batt dying. i told her no batts d. and she pandai pandai go to one cabinet, open it, took out a whole pack of batteries and passed it to me. swt. but the batt cover got screw wan. she ran off to find her dad to ask for screwdriver pula. walaueh............ *faint*

i asked her to smile. she laughed instead. ahha. damn good at talking d. can practically have a whole conversation with her.

ok done. off to search for cute names for the baby.

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added on sat 20/10/07

shopping list (lol. so long nvr go shop for stuff i need):

1. shorts! - walau my shorts all getting holey d. T_T
2. wallet - coin compartment spoil d.
3. pencil box - this one just gatal wanna get. been years since i bought pencil box.
4. bag pack - my poor body glove bag is in such a pitiful state. inside pocket torn. outside strap almost terputus d. T_T

all i can think of now. mom pls dun kill me X_X haven't bought yet! just gatal only for now. cept for the shorts!

ramblings

2007-10-12T16:15:00.000+08:00

^$)&@*^#*(&^@)&*^#*&$

DAMN ANTS! they keep appearing in my kettle. i have to idea why! it's not like the water's sweet or there's food in the kettle. it's just water damnit! stop kamikaze-ing in it! T_T

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SS assignment due next week. no idea how to do. dunno how to do the interviews also. shit. screwed.

**

dunno whether to go back next week for Li May's wedding. following week got TWO labs back to back. and genes and society assignment due on Nov 2. omg. sia not enough time to do things. i'm kinda lost in 2011 and 2005 also. zzz

and if i'm going for the wedding i need to find a suitable outfit for it. and i don't have the time to go shopping lately. T_T

i feel kinda bad cuz i told her i would be going for her wedding. but that was b4 i found out i had freaking assignments due so close to each other and labs all lumped in the same week. *grumbles*

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syen wans new wallet, pencil box, shorts and some marche. =P

i'm fine already btw. in case u're wondering. heh.

2007-10-11T13:23:00.000+08:00

She sits at the window
Staring out
Listening to the soft patter of heaven's tears
She looks so sad
Dejected
Heartbroken
Given up
A million things races through her mind
She doesn't know how to let it out
The people judge her
Censure her when all she wanted was someone to listen
She shuts her heart out to the world yet again
And dark thoughts creep in stealthily

I know every thought she thinks
My heart aches
I want to hold her tight
Tell her it's ok
That I'll make everything ok
Gently wipe the tears that fall
But she continues to stare out the window

I gently tap her
She looks to me
I enfold her in my arms of love
Her dam breaks
She pours out her deepest secrets
I continue to hold her tight

She's still sobbing softly
I lean down and whisper
"Beloved child, Daddy loves you
More than anyone else in this world
And I will always be there for you.
Always"

***

2007-10-11T01:36:00.001+08:00

ok. that's it.

enough is enough.

i'm almost at my limit.

i don't need this.

i don't want this.

i abso-freaking-lutely not gonna stay like this.

finito.

get out and stay out.

conversations between her and me

2007-10-08T22:27:00.000+08:00

she : u gotta stop this, girl. u're hurting inside. i can see it. u're not urself any longer.

me : i know. but each time i try to stop, i can't seem to bring myself to fully commit to it. each time i see him, somethings lights up in me. each time he speaks, i wish i could listen to his voice all day. his face is there each time i close my eyes. my fingers trip over another when his names appears on my hp or laptop screens.

she : oh stop mooning over like a love-sick idiot. if that's wat u feel, just straight up tell him.

me : it's not that simple. what if it drives him away? besides, what if he likes someone else? it feels like he's a different person altogether in person. he doesn't really hang out with me when we're with others. am i just a spare friend to talk to when the rest aren't around? he doesn't seem to notice it, but it's painful to see him talking and laughing and doing stuff with others which he doesn't with me. it's as though i borrowed harry potter's invisible cloak sometimes. and i hate that i love him so.

she : all the more reason for you to stop this nonsense and get a grip on urself. do u really wanna ruin ur life with trivial things like this? just smtg small affects u so greatly. just let him go if he's not worth it.

me : but there are other times when he's well, normal if u can call it that. and i forget bout the things that hurt me. the small, seemingly unimportant things make my day, gives me hope.

she : so u're just gonna sit here, smile when he's nice, cry when he ignores you? how pathetic can u get? u're letting ur life revolve around smtg that's gonna most probably hurt you. u say u wish u were the person u were back then. how are u gonna achieve that if u're not going to save urself from this muck in the 1st place? you should be damn ashamed of urself. seriously, u're so not who u were last time.

the words hit home. i hang my head, a tear slips out and we both walked away from the mirror.

(author's note : the above may or may not be fictitious. =] credits to michelle sue for the idea)

don't worry be happy ~

2007-10-08T07:51:00.000+08:00

you know everything's gonna be alright when

a) u receive an email fr ur cell leader summarizing yesterday's sermon

Romans 4:13
For the promise that he would be the heir of the world was not to Abraham or to his seed through the law, but through the righteousness of faith.

Pastor said this very clearly and even had this phrase on the screen for us that...

When you are Believing Right,
You'll be Living Right.

Learn to say it often "I'm under Grace."

For example, "Lord, I bring this FYP under Your Grace.."
"Lord, I bring this module under Your Grace.."
"Lord, I bring this family relationship with one another under Your Grace.."

if this particular test that you have, you have to struggle and am intimidated by that particular test, doesn't it mean that the test is bigger than Daddy God? I once again realized that my Daddy God is BIGGER than my test my exam. And I don't have to come under the intimidation or fear of the test/exam.

But even as I study for the test/exam, or for some of you, your FYP, your Daddy God who loves you is BIGGER than your FYP!

Romans 4:18-22
in verse 20, it says He did not waver at the promise of God through unbelief, but was strengthened in faith, giving glory to God, and verse 21, and being fully convinced that what He had promised He was also able to perform.

It's like people around us can be frantic about the progress of their FYP, of how they can't finish studying for the mid term tests, of how they realised they made careless mistakes in the tests....But Daddy says, hey huios (son), have GOOD OPINION OF ME..

Begin to have good opinion that all things will turn around for your good!

Begin to believe that your Daddy God loves you!

Begin to believe that every disappointment you face, it's God's divine appointment!

Begin to give praise to Daddy God for He is GOOD and His mercy (Lovingkindness) endures forever! How long? FORever!

b) daily devotional tells the following

Nothing To Do, Only Believe

John 6:28–29
28… “What shall we do, that we may work the works of God?” 29Jesus answered and said to them, “This is the work of God, that you believe in Him whom He sent.”

Notice how Jesus answered them: “This is the work of God, that you believe in Him whom He sent.” My friend, the greatest doing is believing — believing in Jesus who has done it all for you

Beloved, what is the miracle you need today? There is nothing left for you to do but everything for you to believe. Jesus has done it all for you!

and here i was worrying bout my electromag quiz. after reading and just believing and proclaiming, felt to free. as if a big burden has been lifted. Daddy is BIGGER than my little electromag quiz. if Jesus took this quiz, He wouldn't fail. and as He is, so am i in this world!

never ever

2007-10-05T17:28:00.000+08:00

A few questions that I need to know
how you could ever hurt me so
I need to know what I've done wrong
and how long it's been going on
Was it that I never paid enough attention?
Or did I not give enough affection?
Not only will your answers keep me sane
but I'll know never to make the same mistake again
You can tell me to my face or even on the phone
You can write it in a letter, either way, I have to know
Did I never treat you right?
Did I always start the fight?
Either way, I'm going out of my mind
all the answers to my questions
I have to find

My head's spinning
Boy, I'm in a daze
I feel isolated
Don't wanna communicate

I'll take a shower, I will scour
I will rub
To find peace of mind
The happy mind I once owned, yeah

Vexing vocabulary runs right through me
The alphabet runs right from A to Z
Conversations, hesitations in my mind
You got my conscience asking questions that I can't find

I'm not crazy
I'm sure I ain't done nothing wrong, no
I'm just waiting
'Cause I heard that this feeling
won't last that long

Never ever have I ever felt so low
When you gonna take me out of this black hole?
Never ever have I ever felt so sad
The way I'm feeling yeah, you got me feeling really bad

Never ever have I had to find
I've had to dig away to find my own peace of mind
I've never ever had my conscience to fight
The way I'm feeling, yeah, I just don't feel right

I'll keep searching
Deep within my soul
For all the answers
Don't wanna hurt no more

I need peace, got to feel at ease
Need to be.
Free from pain - going insane
My heart aches, yeah

Sometimes vocabulary runs right through my head
The alphabet runs right from A to Z
Conversations, hesitations in my mind
You got my conscience asking questions that I can't find

I'm not crazy,
I'm sure I ain't done nothing wrong
I'm just waiting
'Cause I heard that this feeling won't last that long

Never ever have I ever felt so low
When ya gonna take me out of this black hole?
Never ever have I ever felt so sad
The way I'm feeling yeah, you got me feeling really bad

Never ever have I had to find
I've had to dig away to find my own peace of mind
I've Never ever had my conscience to fight
The way I'm feeling, yeah, I just don't feel right x4

You can tell me to my face,
You can tell me on the phone,
Uh, You can write it in a letter, babe
'Cause I really need to know

You can tell me to my face
You can tell me on the phone
Uh, You can write it in a letter, babe
'Cause I really need to know

You can write it in a letter, babe
You can write it in a letter, babe

***

damn. suddenly i remembered a part of this song's lyrics. and searched up the full lyrics. freaky. it's like...speaking of what my situation is lately.

brain overworking lately. too many questions and stuff going through only part of me that feels no pain. one of the main culprit is that big organ which is pumping blood throughout me. bah. logic going one way, emotions going the other which results in a very messed up person.

i dunno how to sort all the mess inside. something happens, the flame of hope flickers and the mind states it's case. the heart relents and shuts out everything but it's willpower weakens each time the hope gives another tiny spark. foolish foolish lump of muscle.

it's so hard to find peace within myself lately. pent up frustrations. irritating fluctuating emotions. no outlet. like a ticking time bomb.

all the questions have the same answers now.

"i don't freaking know".

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